So, at last, I finally came up with some spirit to post something.
Seems like forever since my last writing, true?
School is usual. Nothing big.
Exam's drawing closer. Hell for me.
Material's so many. I am lazy.
Yea
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Life goes on and we're getting older each passing second. As time passed by, I can't help but wonder about the future. So many things to be considered; so many things to be figured out; so many confusing things. Growing up makes me see things in a different point of view. I just don't wanna grow up.
We're going to enter our senior year in about 3 months time. 3 very short months.
(And yet, I didn't think I've done anything of importance this year, which is a major let-down.)
Now, even though it's not the right time, thinking about graduation made my heart thumped really fast. It reminds me when I first moved to the new class; the feeling I felt towards my dearest friends, definitely not the best kind of feeling ever. I hate the sad nagging feeling in my chest.
But thinking about growing up is causing even more palpitation from my heart.
The freedom, responsibility, novelty, and all other things that are waiting for me to uncover obviously cause strange sensations towards my emotions; excitement, fear, impatience, denial, confusion and a whole lot of other emotions are stirring and churning inside demanding to break free.
But one thing is for sure,
Life is not a field of daisies.
We might be on top of the world today, but we might fall the next.
We've got upside and downside, right?
'Face the truth, solve the problem and enjoy the ride'
that I kept telling myself.
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How does it feel when you lost a friend?
No. That's a rhetorical question. Please answer nothing.
I think I just did. (lost a friend, duh.)
Or maybe, it's all in my mind.
It's not something recent, really; it could be considered as an old story perhaps.
I've grown quite close with this person for quite a while, we talked about so many things, almost everything indeed. Never had a day passed without us chatting around, even when we're so far away on holiday, we still managed to contact each other and vented out our journey of the day.
And yet, we still fell out of it just for a reason:
A girl.
I don't know why, but I think it's the reason.
Flashing back, it might be my fault as well.
I don't really like this girl's presence, so I decided to ignore him, and he did too.
So, that's how.
EWWWW I CAN'T BELIEVE I WROTE SOMETHING CHEESY LIKE THIS!! ARGHARGHAGRHAGRHAGHGHGHGH
IGNORE PLZ
