Splashes of Life

2012-01-18T22:58:00.001+07:00

If the voice does not remember.

2011-12-21T23:19:00.003+07:00

When I was sorting off my folders of pictures, I came across some art pieces made by a really amazing artist (Shel-Yang) under the category of Soundless.

Shel has this distinctively simple yet really sweet watercolour art style. Her pictures could tell a story without any words.

My favorite collection of hers is, obviously, Soundless.
I had admired and collected her pieces since 3 years ago, when I first came across her artworks. (Fear not, I didn't make any profitable distribution or use them without her permission whatsoever.) The collection revolved around a dark haired boy and a brown haired girl.

Interested?

I googled (don't ask me 'why now') for the stories or artbook behind the Soundless collection and found this on Baidu. It's in Chinese, obviously.

It was basically (a) short story(/ies) published by '落落' (Luò Luò) about a girl named 吉澤玉緒 (Jí zé yù xù) and a boy named 新堂聖 (Xīntáng shèng).
Personally, I like to read their names in Japanese: Yoshizawa Tamao and Shindo Sei
So, the Baidu link I provided had some abstracts and extracts written in it, so if you understand Chinese, just read them! :D

Anyway, I kinda like the Poem from the book, so I decided to post here.
--

如果聲音不記得.

如果聲音不記得有種相望叫做尋找
如果聲音不記得有種平凡叫做甜蜜
如果聲音不記得有種爭執叫做保護
如果聲音不記得有種哭泣叫做幸福
如果聲音不記得有種辛苦叫做執著
如果聲音不記得有種期盼叫做等待
如果聲音不記得有種相聚叫做和諧
如果聲音不記得有種牽手叫做愛情
如果聲音不記得有種平淡叫做肯定
如果聲音不記得有種滋味叫做吻
如果聲音不記得有種傷痛叫做分手
如果聲音不記得有種突然叫做幸福
如果聲音不記得有種冷漠叫做在乎
如果聲音不記得有種挽回叫做無奈
如果聲音不記得有種笑靨叫做初戀
如果聲音不記得有種朋友叫做哥們
如果聲音不記得有種背影叫做驚喜
如果聲音不記得有種溫度叫做孤單
如果聲音不記得有種童年叫做兩小無猜
如果聲音不記得有種逃避叫做珍惜

My rough translation:

If the voice does not remember.
If the voice does not remember, there is a look [at each other] called search
If the voice does not remember, there is a normalcy called sweetness
If the voice does not remember, there is a disagreement called protection
If the voice does not remember, there is a weep called happiness
If the voice does not remember, there is hardship called attachment
If the voice does not remember, there is an expectation called waiting
If the voice does not remember, there is an encounter called harmony
If the voice does not remember, there is [an act of] holding hands called love
If the voice does not remember, there is calmness called certainty
If the voice does not remember, there is a taste called kiss
If the voice does not remember, there is pain called breaking up
If the voice does not remember, there is abruptness called happiness
If the voice does not remember, there is coldness called care
If the voice does not remember, there is a retrieval called helplessness
If the voice does not remember, there is a dimple called first love
If the voice does not remember, there is a friend called brother
If the voice does not remember, there is a shadow called surprise
If the voice does not remember, there is a temperature called loneliness
If the voice does not remember, there is a childhood called Jeux d ' enfants
If the voice does not remember, there is an escape called appreciation

...I MIGHT (emphasizing on the probability) attempt to translate the extracts and abstracts tomorrow.

20122011

2011-12-20T21:24:00.004+07:00

Sam looks blankly at the piece of white-dyed wood fibers in front of him.
He scratches his head in attempt to diminish the nonexistent itch as the frustration slowly grows in exasperation. He realizes he has stared at the piece of paper (or at least, at the new blank ones substituting the crumpled ideas on his waste box) for about four hours.

Sam knows very well that this is merely a high school assignment and that Mrs. Brown doesn't demand much but a mere complete set of coherent words she could grade.
But he also knows very well that he wants to write; as a small means to express his thoughts and silent pleas for others to see.

So many things he needs to reconsider.

Should he write it all?
Should he write little?
Should he write straightforward?
Should he write in secrecy; in codes that not most could decipher?
Should he write at all?

...should he?

Letting out another silent sigh, again he picked up his pen and decided to start scribbling.

--
This protruding blankness in my life,
Not knowing when or how it would be filled.
Let alone what or who would fill it.

This vacancy in my soul,
So untouchable, yet so real.
Young I may be, but exhausted is my heart.

Like cocoon I've always shielded,
So afraid of it ever breaking,
So very fragile I've realized it is.

The little pseudo hope and belief,
The vain attempt of assuring,
I would be okay.
--

Sam reads his work over and over again, carefully analyzes every word, every letter.
He finally smiles at himself and turns off his table lamp.

2011-11-28T16:42:00.003+07:00

I've always been the one got pulled out to the lights.
I've always been the one got picked up pieces by pieces.
I've always been the one got concerned by others.
I've always been the one made smile by others.

It's always a passive voice for me.
I want to do things, not get things done to me.
I want to change.

11172011

2011-11-16T23:36:00.005+07:00

Hey. I'm supposed to be sleeping right now. But..
--
"Rick."

"What." The lad in question answers monotonously while he continues scribbling down the essential materials and the events arrangement for the upcoming festival. He then shifts his eyes to the list of sponsors and analyzes them carefully. Evidently, the budget couldn't cover most of the cost. He glances back at the words and numbers he had scribbled neatly and frowns slightly. Maybe they need to omit the local band and just hire their school's ba-

"RICK!" A deafening feminine voice shrieks near his ears.

Slightly startled, Rick looks up from his papers to the red-headed girl who is sitting on the chair facing him. The girl grins in mischief and pride now that she has his attention. Rick, having been accustomed to the girl's antics for sometime now, raises his left eyebrow.

"Can't you see I'm trying to work right now?"

"Can't you see I'm trying to amuse myself right now?"

"Go home, Summer." With that, Rick proceeds to concentrate back on his work. Summer is obviously not pleased when he ignores her..again. Is this a way to treat a lady? Even after she has decided to wait for him to finish his work? She even misses her beloved 4pm anime for him!

"You know, your papers seem so bland and I could help decorating it. Thankfully, I brought my colour markers and glitters around. Oh, maybe we could cut out some butterflies too."

Rick put down his pen in exasperation and sighed, "What do you want?"

"Amusement."

"Then go home."

"Come on. Why are you doing all the work? You're the vice president of student rep for screaming out loud!"

"Exactly. And these are my responsibility. Thanks for understanding, Summer."

"Riick!" The girl continues to whine at the uncaring boy. She starts to rock her chair back and forth to create mini earthquakes on the table where Rick is trying to write.

"Alright. Alright. What do you want me to do?"

Summer cheers out loud when she hears his dejected offer, "Tell me a story!"

Rick frowns in disbelief as he asks in sarcasm, "How old are you?"

"Five."

The raven haired guy squints at his friend's horrendous effort in looking like a five year old girl. "Very funny."

"I know. Now start telling me a story."

Rick ruffles his short black locks and wonders to himself how in the world he could befriend someone as unbelievable as this girl.
"Once upon a time.." Rick notices that Summer's eyes round in anticipation and lets out a small chuckle, "there was a young man who worked as a farmer in a small Kingdom called Neskia. His name was-"

"Brendan!"

"Are you interrupting me?"

"No, I was-"

"Good. If you interrupt again, I'll stop the story." Rick almost chuckles again at Summer's pout. He then continues, "Brendan was a hard-working farmer. He lived alone in a small yet comfortable cottage. He worked night and day tiling his land. He grew a lot of crops and always sold his goods in low prices. He also offered the same kindness to everyone. All in all, he was a well-respected farmer.

"One day, he traveled to the market to buy some supplies. He had bought some seeds, bread and some daily needs items. On his way home, he bumped into someone and dropped his bought items.

'S-Sorry.' a melodious and sweet feminine voice resounded. 'Are you okay?' the lady asked.

Brendan was rendered speechless as he dove into a pair of ocean blue orbs staring innocently at him. He nodded absentmindedly as he admired her long golden silky tresses. He could smell faint roses fragrance as the lady handed back some of his scattered belongings.

'I believe that's all you've dropped.' The lady smiled sweetly at Brendan. Brendan tried to stretch his facial muscle to form an awkward smile. However, their (one-way) conversation was cut short when a voice called out.

'Princess Spring! We need to hurry!'

'Coming!'

With that, the princess left the poor farmer without another word. They never crossed path again ever since that day. And the farmer, could only look at her in admiration from afar.

The End."

The redhead frowned at the raven haired boy, "What? The End? That's not an end!"

"Yes it is. I tell the story, I decide when it's going to end." She could feel his darkened mood.

She knows better to stop, but yet-

"So, Brendan will stay like that forever? Not even bother to try approaching Princess Spring?"

"Yes. He's a mere farmer and she's a Princess. They won't change. Forever."

She knows not to pry further, but yet-
"So what if she's a Princess? She still has heart right? She could fall for Brendan for sure! Brendan. What a joke. What sort of loser is that? Giving up without putting any effort! Can't he at least-"

"SHUT UP!" Summer is taken aback from the unexpected loud interruption, "You don't know anything about Brendan." His voice is cold and bitter. His scowl reflects all the sourness he's experiencing at the moment. "Don't judge him like you have the right to do so."

Summer tries hard not to tremble as she glares back. She's only trying to help and make suggestion for Brendan. She wants Brendan to go for his happiness instead of watching in silence forever.

Rick then backs off and sighs, "I'm sorry for yelling. I'll go wash my face. I must have been too tired." He walks across the room and goes out without even looking back at the redhead.

Summer looks at his retreating figure and sighs. Maybe she has crossed the line. Maybe she needs to be gentler.

She knows he's talking about her.

Maybe because she's not her.

The last thought left a bitter taste in her mouth.
"I know Brendan more than you know...idiot."
--

It's 2:28AM. I NEED TO SLEEP.
Weird post by the way, I know. :/

14112011.

2011-11-14T20:52:00.006+07:00

Hey there.
I figure I haven't updated anything about my life for long enough.

First things first.
JAY CHOU HAS JUST RELEASED HIS 11TH ALBUM ON 11/11/2011!!

驚嘆號 (Exclamation Point)
The complete Track List:
1. "驚嘆號" (Jīng Tàn Hào Exclamation Mark)
2. "迷魂曲" (Mí Hún Qǔ Enchanting Melody)
3. "Mine Mine"
4. "公主病" (Gōng Zhǔ Bìng Princess Syndrome)
5. "你好嗎" (Nǐ Hǎo Ma How Are You?)
6. "療傷燒肉粽" (Liáo Shāng Shāo Ròu Zòng Healing Dumplings)
7. "琴傷" (Qín Shāng Piano Sadness)
8. "水手怕水" (Shuǐ Shǒu Pà Shuǐ Hydrophobic Sailor)
9. "世界未末日" (Shì Jiè Wèi Mò Rì The World's Not Over)
10. "皮影戲" (Pí Yǐng Xì Shadow Puppetry)
11. "超跑女神" (Chāo Pǎo Nǚ Shén The Goddess of Race)

How epic is that?
Sadly, I haven't had the chance to purchase one copy for myself..yet.
Since I'm a pirate, I've listened to every song in it.

The first two tracks introduced to me were "驚嘆號" and "Mine Mine". I have to be honest: I was pretty disappointed when I listened to them for the first time.
(Okay, here comes the know-it-all bitching)
As for "驚嘆號", maybe it's because I'm not a big fan of Chinese-rock songs and the poor quality of the sample song I found didn't help either.
Whereas "Mine Mine" on the other hand, is pretty easy on ear. I like the music. But then again, Jay decided to autotune the whole song, and I was like, 'WTF Jay, your voice sounds brilliant without all those artificial touches.'

However after the album was released and after I listened to all the tracks, I've decided, I LOVE the album.

I mean, are you kidding, the whole album has been on repeat on my playlist for like the whole day. (Some of my contacts must have noticed it.)
(Don't worry, I WILL BUY the album.)

My favorite song by far is "你好嗎".
Its mellow melody and simple yet deep lyrics manage to get me. :)
And of course, Jay always manages to sing sad songs so well that it (almost) always touches my heart. (Over-dramatic much?)

Following closely is "公主病", the melody of which is pretty similar to "陽光宅男" (a song from his past album "我很忙", well...Jay himself has demonstrated it actually, far before the makings of the album.

The lyrics of "公主病" are so fluffy that I melted the moment I learned about it..almost literally. It should be illegal for someone his age to be so cute!

The other songs, they're good, but they haven't struck me as hard as the two above do..yet.

In conclusion: All in all, I love the album.
Jay NEVER disappoints me.
(But then again, I always love the songs made by Jay..)
(And then again, I was a tad bit shocked when I first heard about his so-called marriage..I'm not going to lie: I was depressed, devastated. Fanatic much?)
--

So, about my day today..
The whole day went just fine, nothing too bad nor too good happened.
My EB (English for Business) lecturer handed us back our individual feedbacks on our previous assessments. The feedbacks aren't mandatory for the lecturers, she just chose to provide us with some. Thank her.
At first when I read the words 'Well done!', 'Good Job!' etc in the feedback paper, needless to say I almost jumped up and down in excitement.
But after reading through some of my friends' feedbacks which contain almost similar words, I started to doubt the ambiguity meaning behind the words.
Is she trying to console us, who didn't do as well as the others?
Or does that mean the work we did is sufficient?

...I doubt it.

Anyhow, nothing else of importance emerges.
However, my journey back today wasn't as enjoyable as the other days.
First of all, the bus was fully packed. I tried to wriggle out when I realize my friend couldn't get in, but I was roughly shoved by the bus' entrance door. Thankfully I didn't get squeezed (to death by the door) or something.

When we arrived at the next stop, the driver didn't even bother to inform me that he was going to open the door. I mean hello? Am I supposed to notice anything with my back facing the door, I obviously couldn't see a thing.
If I wasn't wrong, the other drivers did make a short announcement when they were about to do so..
And what was he thinking? We could barely move and he still expected more passengers to ride? Come on, at least let the passengers alight first, won't you?

In the end, my right slipper was stuck..under the door. I struggled to get it back (and I believe some people outside the bus watched me did so) before quickly made my way to the body of the bus.
--

Yes I do love leaving my stories hanging like this. :)
(Actually nothing happened afterwards, just some boring walking and boring eating and boring browsing and a bit boring sketching before blogging ~~boring~~ post...)

Another thing is, I'm about to face my first semester examination in about 15 days..and that sucks.
(I don't know, I just have the habit of blogging just right before examinations..I guess.)

I should be revising right now..

Naturally.

2011-10-26T19:59:00.002+07:00

Some people are just...
So naturally beautiful.
So naturally smart.
So naturally loveable.
So naturally healthy.
So naturally friendly.
So naturally patient.
So naturally kindhearted.
So naturally perfect.

What about the others?

Little Girl.

2011-10-10T22:47:00.005+07:00

There is an awkward little girl bearing a straw hat who's looking for something.
She walks and walks, all this time she has always been alone.
She walks and walks, and sometimes wonders why she's alone.

There are times when the little girl stops to look at that dandelion floating along the wind.
Her eyes glimmers and sparkles as she admires its simplicity.
She has always reached out her hand but has always quickly pulled it back.
She has always been terrified if she touches it, she will taint its purity.

So instead, she just turns around and walks.
She walks and walks, even though it hurts her to leave.
She walks and walks, and sometimes she turns back once or twice.

Today, the little girl arrives at the field of golden wheat.
She beams when she sees some figures amongst the field.
Thinking, 'Are they who I'm looking for?'

She hums as she skips across the grass.
Unknowingly, she bumps into a transparent glass.
She pulls herself up and stares at it.
Raising her hand almost hesitantly, she touches the glass.
She then glances up, wondering if she could see the top of the glass.
And although she squints and jumps, she could never see its top.

This is not the first time she's seen such glass.
And there were times when she could see the top of the glass.
But most times, she couldn't do so.

She tries to knock, kick, and hit her way through the glass.
Her desperation showing almost too obviously.
But no matter how hard she knocks, the glass doesn't even make a sound.

So in desperation, she leans her head on the glass.
Tired of trying, she whispers softly to herself.
"I'm going to try again."

Just when she is about to knock again,
the glass shatters.
It crumbles into tiny shiny dust,
and flies away with the wind.

She jumps happily and makes her way through the golden field.
She then calls out cheerfully,
"Hello!"

But no one answers,
And as she gets closer,
she realizes,
They aren't the ones she's looking for.

She looks at the figures carefully,
And they all stare back with their permanent artificial smiles.
Disappointed, she is, but she has to be strong,
So she leaves like nothing is wrong.

As she walks further from them,
She thought she hears whispers.
So she turns back and sees,
That the figures starts conversing merrily.

The awkward little girl with a straw hat keeps walking.
She walks and walks, and wonders what she's looking for.
She walks and walks, with high hopes of growing strong as she continues walking.

Preparing the Canvas; Brainstorming session.

2011-09-22T21:36:00.004+07:00

I have to admit: my last post was quite curt and somehow incomprehensible.
Yeah, it was my emotions taking control of my brains and body.
You don't have to be genius to know that venting out once in a while really helps maintaining our sanity.
--

Anyhow, I don't think I've ever mentioned this before, but I've moved out (sorta) from my house and was on my way to pursue further studies abroad.

Up until now, I haven't experienced much hardships...perhaps it's because I'm still living with my brother. And of course, the fact that my parents and families take turn to check on me a few times a day somehow wads away the feeling of being away from my home.
--

So, as for the title...
I'm a bit ashamed to admit that I have this...cliche outlook on my supposedly new life: I see it as a blank canvas.

And right now, I'd like to call as the brainstorming session, since I haven't exactly got anything planned in my head yet.

Yeah, moving to a whole new place has its perks. You could be a total new somebody and nobody would come to your face and say, "This is not you. You acted differently. Is there anything wrong with you?"

No. You would be free to splash any kinds of colour on your picture.
--

I'll stop here. I promise I'll write more tomorrow.
Tomorrow is gonna be a long day. I guess.

P.S. Pink is my UNLUCKY colour. Keep that in mind, Future Self.

Runaway

2011-09-12T14:16:00.005+07:00

Avril Lavigne - "Runaway"

Got up on the wrong side of life today, yeah
Crash the car and I'm gonna be really late
My phone doesn't work cuz it's out of range
Looks like it's just one of those kind of days

You can't kick me down I'm already on the ground
No you can't, but you couldn't catch me anyhow
Blue skies, but the sun isn't coming out, no
Today is like I'm under a heavy cloud

And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

So-so's how I'm doing, if you're wondering
I'm in a fight with the world but I'm winning
Stay there, come closer it's at your own risk
Yeah you know how it is life can be a bitch

And I feel so alive
I can't help myself
Don't you realize

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

Run away, run away, run away, run away

I just wanna scream and lose control
Throw my hands up and let it go
Forget about everything and run away, yeah
I just wanna fall and lose myself
Laughing so hard it hurts like hell
Forget about everything and run away, yeah

I just feel like I want to explode.
I don't know why.
I don't know how.
And I don't even care.
I just want to run away.
--

Peace and idleness tend to be disastrous for people who over-think things like me.
I want to go crazy and break all the rules without worrying anything.
I couldn't express what I feel with mere words or pictures anymore.

Today sucks.

2011-06-21T11:31:00.004+07:00

The title alone could explain.

At this moment, I'm in a most sour mood.
And it's only almost mid-day.
I'm not quite excited what the rest of the day would bring.

--
I understand and acknowledge that incompetency is a sign of being a human.
But yet, the one point I couldn't quite pinpoint would be of why someone would go blaming other people for their own incompetency.

Yes, we all are incompetent of doing something at one point, but please, keep your finger to yourself and stop pointing at others when you fail to do your responsibility.

Just because you have a slightly higher authority than I do, doesn't mean you get the privilege to start blaming it on me.

Look, I had a rough morning. My hips and thighs hurt, fucking menstruation cramps. Someone in my household kept bothering me with silly things that said person could easily do. (I mean, come on, he's in your room, and you're about to go to your room and yet you wanted me to send his message? Absurdity.)
Now my stomach is starting to ache. Fuck this.
Not to mention I was recently (this morning) left frustrated by the fact that I've spent about Rp 300,000 for two books of rubbish.
To spice things up, my phone acted like shit as well.

Yes, I apologize for being less than polite when I called you back to inform of your lack of competency in delivering the accurate information.

But, I advise you for a reality check once in a while.
Once a month would be suffice.

Graduated

2011-05-16T18:47:00.005+07:00

Yes, I have officially graduated.

To be completely honest, I feel blank right now.
It's just...blah. As if it's not that interesting or anything.

Well, considering the passing percentage of the national exams of my school is 100%.

Yeah, I'm really not that excited.
I wish we had those fancy hats and cloak-thingies that the western people have on.., seems more interesting to be photographed and remembered.
--

I attended Science-01's (a.k.a Musketeers) Farewell Party yesterday night.
It was quite awesome.

Awards were given to students and teachers alike.
Some awards were kinda normal and some were not, obviously.
I won nothing apparently. Surprise!!!not.

A letter written by our Chinese-language teacher was shown, yet again.
I was kinda surprise to find myself crying (a bit) again, because, you know, I had read the letter before.

And said teacher cried too. Aww.
--

Honestly, I don't think that my already-flat life could get flatter anymore.
All I've been doing these days are just watching DVDs, drawing a bit (which I feel that I really sucked in that recently), browsing, and perhaps occasional gaming.

I'm bored.

And one more thing, I...really gotta say that I'm not feeling the...feeling to write some IELTS-y paragraphs.
--

So, Despicable Me, here we go.

A super-villain named Gru, feels his prestige is slowly deterring because of a recent felony by another super-villain, Vector, who just stole the Great Pyramid of Giza.

With the help of his fellow accomplice, Dr. Nefario, who apparently is an old fellow with bad hearing, Gru came up with a much more brilliant plan: He's going to steal the moon.
Ever since he was a child, he has always dreamed about going to the moon, however, this intention was always scoffed upon by his mother.

Determined with his plan, Gru visits the 'Villain-Bank' to loan some money as doing said project is rather expensive. However, the Bank's president, Mr. Perkins, even after Gru's presentation of his plan, isn't quite impressed. Thus, he refuses to loan Gru money before Gru could attain the most important part of Gru's plan: the Shrink Ray.

Stealing the Shrink Ray from the East Asian lab is pretty much a breeze for Gru.
However, stealing the Shrink Ray from Gru is a breeze as well for Vector.

Gru tries to break in Vector's headquarters and fails miserably. Then, Gru sees the three orphaned girls (Margo, Edith and Agnes) who have been selling cookies around the neighborhood pass Vector's security easily.

For the sake of his plans, Gru decides to adopt the girls from the orphanage using a false identity as a dentist. The girls, having been treated poorly at the orphanage, are more than happy to leave (although they're not quite thrilled by the fact that it is Gru who has adopted them).

Due to his unhappy childhood and lack of love for child whatsoever, Gru doesn't know how to take care of children and he simply couldn't care less, therefore leaving the girls at the hands of his yellow short minions.

With the help of the girls and the cookies robots, Gru finally succeeds in stealing the Shrink Ray. On their way home, however, the children beg for a day at the recently opened theme park. Gru, seeing this as a way to be free of the children, agrees.

Gru initially decides to leave the girls on a roller-coaster ride, however, he's then forced to ride along with them because they need an adult to accompany them.
Next, the girls decide to challenge one of the aiming game where the owner obviously cheats, as even though Agnes manages to hit the target, it won't fall at all. Pissed by the owner, Gru burns down the stand altogether. From then on, he starts to bond with the girls.

With the Shrink Ray in his possession, Gru confronts the Bank's president and presents his plans, again.
However, Mr. Perkins is, again, unimpressed with him. He says that he loves his whole plan and everything except for Gru himself.

Mr. Perkins believes that Gru is too old and incapable to do as well as the other younger, fresher villains. Then ends their video chat abruptly. Shortly after that, Mr. Perkins calls for his son, Vector, and asks as to why Gru succeeds to have the Shrink Ray, then he demands Vector to sabotage, or to be exact, to steal Gru's plan.

Desperate with the lack of fund, Gru decides to terminate the whole project and dismiss his thousands of minions in the process. Then the girls step up, offering their piggy bank, followed by his thousands of minions, digging in their pockets for a spare of money to help their boss. Moved by this gesture, Gru determines to continue his plan by using everything to build a rocket.

Little did he know, the Shrink Ray has a side effect in which the larger the mass of the subject shrunk, the faster it turns back into its original size.

Finally the rocket is finished. However, the day when the moon is on its best position from the earth is coincidentally the same day as the girls' ballet recital.

Seeing that Gru isn't totally focused on the project because of the girls' distraction, Dr. Nefario decides to give the girls back to the orphanage. Gru doesn't do anything to prevent this from happening.

Gru then successfully shrinks and brings back the moon. Thinking that he has enough time to make it to the girls' recital, Gru rushes to their school. Alas, he's too late. Then, he notices a note left by Vector, mentioning the girls are held as hostages. In order to get the girls back, Gru has to trade his moon for them.

But Vector defies their trade by taking both the moon and the girls with him. Dr. Nefario, on the other hand, starts to realize the side-effect of Shrink Ray and rushes to notify Gru. He makes it in time to aid Gru gaining the girls back.

Gru, having realized that the moon is going to expand back to its original size, teams up with Dr. Nefario and launches Vector's ship just as Margo, being the last of the girls being rescued, jumps to Gru's ship.

Thus, the moon is back to its place with an additional Vector on it.

Shortly later, Gru adopts the girls back. He writes a bed-time story for the girls based on his experience in place of the old bed-time story (which he considers as the worst literature created ever).

At the end of the movie, the girls dance their ballet and everyone else dances on the dance floor afterwards.
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Least to say, I like this movie. :)
I know, crappy summary/writing/whatever.

100511

2011-05-10T20:27:00.002+07:00

So yeah, about my absence yesterday..I'll just be honest. I was distracted. Perhaps far more than I like to be.

As I truly didn't do any of my planned routines at all. Like, at all.

It's because I just bought these whole load of DVDs , and yeah, I'm spending my sweet, sweet time sitting in front of the TV for almost all day.

Man, I feel ashamed.

But well, I've watched Despicable Me, Thor, and a few episodes of America's Next Top Model - Cycle 15.

I probably will write tid-bits of my thoughts on those movies later.

Because, (here comes another lame excuse, argh) I have assignments, which felt like mountains to me, since, again, I failed to do yesterday because of the so-called distraction.

And these assignments are due tomorrow, while I have yet to get even half of them done.

I know, lame, right? (Me, I mean)

If anyone's wondering, I'm doing them for the class I've been taking for a week now: Accounting.

--

Anyhow, the whole point of me deciding to post today is that I think I've had this almost scary experience.

You see, I was asked by mother to store some money to the bank, which thankfully is near my house. Then, I, who was kinda aggravated then, just slammed the door and practically jumped in the car with my hair all wet and messy. The weather is burning hot lately, that's why I have no interest in going out whatsoever.

When I arrived there, I saw these many cars/motorcycles parked in front of it. So, I was like, 'Oh poop, you gotta be kidding me.' So yeah, I walked in, and I think I glared at the security just now (feeling bad, right now). Then, I saw the queue and sighed a relief, inwardly. I just had to wait for a couple of dudes.

I'm almost sure I could hear those people's thoughts, which were something like, 'What the hell is wrong with this girl? Just got washed up from the drain?'

No, I'm not smelly, nor am I dirty. It's just my messy wet hair, and maybe my sulky face. So I tried to make myself more presentable by combing my hair with my fingers.

After standing in the line for a few minutes, a huge guy entered and queued behind me. He's not exactly bulky, but he has a big tummy. I'm not sure what his face looked like, because I was way too sullen at that time to actually look around. But I scarcely recalled his face being quite..friendly-looking.

So this huge guy borrowed the pen from the guy standing in front of me, writing on a somekind of cheque or something. And well, nothing weird happened there.

But suddenly, a tangy scent made its way to my nose. I don't know why but I automatically held my breath. Perhaps maybe because I'm sort of terrified of all those stories about hypnotised by a stranger (and not in a good way, may I add) and what not.

Anyhow, I got all so defensive suddenly. Haha. Yeah I know, I'm quite paranoid, but it's better be safe than risk to the unknowns, right?

[Btw, it's 11:16 PM now, thanks to the blackout. And it's kinda hot here, it feels like summer is coming, though it's technically impossible, since we only have dry and wet season here. Though both these guys don't come according to the schedule anymore..)

So, I'd been holding my breath for as long as I could while at the same thinking, 'Please, please, people, be damn faster.' Honestly, I was a little bit terrified there, I even imagined what would happen if I were ever to faint or something. (Now that I'm thinking much more logically, perhaps the bank workers there would most probably help me or something, and of course, wouldn't let me be dragged away by that huge guy.., would they?)

And not long after that, it was my turn, I could feel myself sighing in relief. Then I heard the teller asked me, "How may I help you, miss?"

"Store." Short reply, I know.

"Is this your bank account?"

"Uh, no, i-it's my..mum's actually."

"Your mother's it is then? May I see your ID card?"

"Uh, I don't have it." As in, really don't have it. Yes, it's been 4 months since my 17th birthday. Believe me, his 'I-don't-freaking-believe-it' face is really tempting to be punched.

"Oh, right. Please wait a sec." After his tippity tappy toe with his co-workers, he came back and said, "Miss, if you don't have your ID, please ask someone with an ID to do it for you next time."

Thankfully, I was feeling indifferent at that time. So I just shrugged and let him continue his work.

While waiting for his awfully slow work, I started to realize that I felt a bit dizzy, like I was standing on a not balanced piece of wood on a river. My hands even shook a bit. Firstly I thought it was due to the heat, but after a few seconds of considering, it was scrapped as I was hardly spending my day under the sun. Then my paranoid side went to the act again. So I told myself to stay on focus, and nothing would happen.

In the end, I was thinking for the whole time. Hence, it led me to squint and nod unconsciously at the teller when he asked trivial matters about the whole 'storing' thingy.

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Anyway I'm glad that nothing happened.
P.S. This whole post was written from my phone.

070511

2011-05-07T19:29:00.002+07:00

I had a cute dream yesterday. :)

Onto today's exercise!
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Too much attention is paid to and too much money is spent on keeping pets, while people throughout the world is starving.

* Discuss the arguments for and against keeping pets.
* To what extent do you agree?

In today's world, pets have been quite popular amongst the society ranging from the youth to the elders. There are many different reasons for people to keep pets, with the most common reason would be the need of a company. While some people, especially the elders, keep pets as a guidance and a guardian. Trained dogs could guide blind people and guard the doors. But some people pour too much time and money for the sole sake of maintaining their pets' needs. Hundreds of dollars are spent on pets' saloon and/or their food. While the riches could afford of said luxury, has it ever crossed their mind that instead of spending all those money on their pets they could perhaps donate some to the poorer people out there?

Pets could be useful at times. For when you need a friend and there seems like no one is there for you, its presence could prove to be not worthless. Basically, people just need to fulfill their primary needs, like food, love, and shelter. It's not like your pets demand you to drive them to the pets' saloon if they have never been there before. However, untrained pets are quite a bother, for they could run around your house and thrash everything in their way. So keep pets on

In my opinion, comparing keeping pets and paying attention to the starving people in the world is rather far-fetched. Because it's not like the officials totally abandon humanity helps and go for the pets. Besides, helping people is solely based on our own consciences.
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Word count: 261
Time used: 25 minutes

Improvement? I guess so...

050611

2011-05-06T20:41:00.004+07:00

Life has been pretty good to me lately, vice versa.
But I realize it's been pretty boring to just sit around all day for a few months, so I decide to take some classes just for the sake of somewhat a mock routine. That needs to be done in order to keep my sanity.

Anyhow, prom was like almost two weeks ago and I think it's not as memorable as I wished it would have been, hence I didn't write about it.

My cousin is getting married in a week, I guess.
The invitation card of hers is green and white striped, with silhouettes of a bride and a groom at the front.
Why am I writing about this?
I absolutely have no idea at all.

Never mind about that.
--

My IELTS test is in two weeks and I have done nothing as preparation for it.
Quite daring, as I would say.
But the idea of failing isn't appealing to me, at all. Therefore, I decide some practices and studying will do me good.
And I'd like to brush up my writing skill here.
--

Here's a random topic I picked up from my old book:

Some people believe that computers are more a hindrance than a help in today's world. Others feel that they are such indispensable tools that they would not be able to live or work without them.

* In what ways are computers a hindrance?
* What is your opinion?

Use your own ideas, knowledge and experience and support your arguments with examples and with relevant evidence.
You should write at least 250 words, in 40 minutes

Nowadays, computers are almost as common as microwaves, or perhaps more common in some cases. It's also commonly acknowledged that computers play a great role in making our lives easier. However, negative opinions also arose on the computerization mechanism in our life. How could such a useful machine be considered as a hindrance in our lives?

Like most things invented, computers are meant to ease our burdens, especially with all the programs designed to compliment the function of a computer. For example, writing and editing with a word processor are easier to be done; creating arts digitally is far easier than traditionally; arranging files and documents are also much simpler digitally, this function is particularly useful to those people who have so little time and so many things to do. Beside that, computers could also provide us with some sort of entertainment: we could read, listen to the music, watch movies, play games and connect with other people (with the help of the internet).

Although with all the good things offered by a computer, it still could be an obstacle. For example, some people lose the track of time when they're enjoying themselves on the entertainment stored in a computer, most notably on the games and internet section; some people also store all of their important files and documents on the computer without any backup, so when the computer is infected by a virus or any other lethal malfunctioning worms, said people could simply bid all their hard work a farewell.

In my opinion, to completely stop global usage of computers is an impossible deed, as it plays a really important role on our busy lives, but then again, relying too much on it isn't good either, as spending too much time sitting in front of the screen will also cause obesity. So, the idea is to balance the time we spend on and off the screen.
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Word Count: 317 words
Time used: 60 minutes

I seriously need to practice more.
And I sorta feeling that my writing has some kind of 'on hold' feeling.

"Fairy Tale"

2011-04-23T18:55:00.006+07:00

Ahh. I have been tidying up my stuffs and sorting out the things that I no longer need for the whole day. It was kinda fun.

Then I came across these old magazines mother bought for me when I was a kid. Ending result: Nostalgic reading session.

After reading a few, I came across this old short story in one of the magazines, which I had fallen in love with since I first read it (which was like 8 years ago). So, right now, I'm thinking of sharing it.

The original story was in Indonesian. This would be my attempt to translate it in English.
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"The tale of Fairy Tale"
by Ramayulis

In a veranda of a small house full of many kinds of statues and fretwork, sat an old man. His eyes were gazing softly at the distant. He was trying to seek out for the slightest signs of his wife's arrival. But the old lady who has just passed away never came back.

To ward away his loneliness, the old man decided to create a statue. Staring at the statue he almost finished, the old man muttered, "This statue is very beautiful. It's just like you, my dear."

He continued to sculpt while occasionally went to the kitchen to find out what his wife was cooking for him that day. But every time he peeked into the kitchen, he had to be disappointed, for he saw no single soul there.

Days passed and the statue was finished. But alas, the creation of the old man wasn't as perfect as his past works. The statue was indeed beautiful, but wielded a sad face even though the old man has specifically carved a smile on her face. Maybe his deep sorrow within his heart was reflected on his creation.

However, regardless of anything, he still loved the statue. He then named the statue as 'Fairy Tale'. For the tale of him and his wife would always rekindle in his heart. And the statue lived happily with her father.

One day, the old man died. He had to leave the world and finally met his wife. Before his death, the old man had entrusted the statue to one of his good friends at the town. But this good friend of his had the eyes only for the profit. "Hmph, I'd rather sell you than having to display your ugly face at my house." He said to the statue. Then he brought the statue to the market.

On her way to the market, Fairy Tale cried for the first time. And she didn't know then that it would be the begin of many other tears she would cry. She was treated badly and had to switch masters for so many times. Sometimes she would lament silently about why she was created with such a hideous complexion. But whenever she recalled about the old man, her father, her sorrow would vanish instantly.

Her constant flowing tears had left two long streaks on her face. Again and again until she had an even more hideous face. Now no one was willing to even look at her again.

Days and months passed. After her seemingly long journey, she finally arrived at a museum. She was placed at the end of the exhibition. The other fancy statues glanced arrogantly at her way.

The museum was very crowded that one morning because an auction for the statues was held that day. Fairy tale wasn't excluded from the auction and she was especially much more miserable that day because the people were busy praising other statues. Undeniably, this made the other statues mocked her more.

"You really have such an ugly face!" one of the statues had scoffed at her.

"Yeah! I can't bear staring at you even for another second." the Swan Statue exclaimed.

"Shh...shut up! That rich lady over there, she was looking at me." the Dancer Statue hissed at them. She then tried to look her best in order to fascinate the lady. And sure enough, the wealthy lady bought her.

Hours had passed and many of the statues were sold. Yet a certain man was still busy making his decision. He had been walking around observing since the morning. He kept looking and finally stopped right in front of Fairy Tale.

'Oh no! He is certainly going to insult me...' Fairy Tale thought.

"Uh huh...magnificent! Lovely, precise, how beautiful..."

Everyone in the room was shocked. Fairy Tale, herself was also confused.

"Yes. I want this one!" the man exclaimed vigorously.

"Are you serious, sire?" one of the auctioneers had asked. "He's right sir, that piece is surely hideous." A man beside him added.

"No! In no way could I be wrong. This is the most beautiful sculpture I have ever seen. Take a look at it! Her facial expression showed the sorrow in her heart. Her sad eyes and the long streaks on her face, they show the thousands of tears she had cried. How much hardship she has to endure for so long. But this smile... Look at how brave and rigid she has remained."

Everybody was now looking carefully at the statue.

"Yes. What this gentleman said is right. Look at how expressive this statue is. Oh...it must be that the artist had made this statue with all his heart."

No words could express the happiness Fairy Tale had felt.

"Hey, did you hear that? Do you think it's true?" the Statue of God of War whispered.
"I don't know, I couldn't believe this as well!" the Musician Statue beside him answered.

The whole room went silent for a while, as the occupants of which were all busy thinking respectively. There were those who regretted their oversight, and some asked inwardly as to why they couldn't appreciate such beauty of a statue.

"Here. I only have this sum of money. It is indeed not proportionate with the value of her. But I really wish to buy her." the man said whilst handing a suitcase to the auction committee.

They were dumbfounded when the committee opened the suitcase. Piles of money lied there, God knows how much it was. A man occupied himself by counting with his fingers, but nevertheless shook his head. No one could estimate the total because of its enormous amount.

Evening had arrived, and the museum was closing. Everybody went home with their own statues. Today they learned a valuable lesson.

The wise man, himself, went home in delight. He couldn't care less how much he had spent, he now owned such a beautiful piece of art after all.

Ah, if only the gentleman knew, how much Fairy Tale wanted to shout out her gratitude for him. She couldn't bear this feeling in her heart. Suddenly, the image of her father appeared on her mind, and she smiled.

Ah, if only Fairy Tale knew, that up there, faraway in the blue sky, in the midst of the white cloud, an old familiar fellow was smiling and shed a happy tear for her. Yeah...Fairy Tale never knew that all this time, the old man was always accompanying her journey. Every single tear she shed was also shed by her creator, her father.

"Goodbye, beautiful statue, wish you always be happy" the old man whispered. "Let's go, my love. Let's leave." He then held the hands of the old lady tightly, who had always been faithful to him and had always accompanied him everywhere. And then, they both fly high across the blue sky, far, faraway until they became a dot and disappeared.

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Meh, I don't know about the other people, but I really love this story.. :)

School is over, but not moping.

2011-04-22T21:29:00.004+07:00

All right.
The national examination for High School was officially over yesterday, with Physics as the last subject tested (for the Science class).

Now that the exams and school are over, I guess I should just start posting again.

Firstly, let me write about some things first.

Our class consists of students from many different classes, which had only been put in the same class on our very last year.

I would bet that most of these people perhaps didn't know if the others (the ones who weren't in their class, of course) exist at all before entering this class.

Therefore, in these short nine months (now that I think about it, it sounds pretty much like pregnancy), we could almost unite. Yeah, almost.

A lot of walls and barriers built up by each groups of friends couldn't simply be ignored. The difference in cultures also made it hard for us to be wholly as one. Not to mention the huge amount of people in one class: 48 people with 2 others gone to America for studies. (Even with that number, our class was still considered as one of the classes with the least students). And also, the fact that there was a period when some of my classmates just ditched for several weeks which led us to actually be used to their absence..

Maybe for the guys, it was pretty easy for them to socialize with their common interests such as sports, or perhaps pranks, unlike the girls. I don't know how to explain this fenomenon, it's like common knowledge.

However, there was this one thing that brought us together, which is: music.

When one of our native friends brought his guitar and strummed a familiar tune, we would sing along.

Those moments were the best moments ever. It made me feel like we were one big family. :)

And as for our form teacher, Mr. H. L. is like a beloved father for us all.
He teaches us maths, and is damn good at it. (FO' SURE!)
He's religious and is infamous for his oh-so-famed vampire jump punishment. (For those who are wondering, it's the Chinese vampire, not the sparkly ones.. Here's a link: Jiang Shi )
Me, I have experienced it once. Trust me, it's not the coolest thing in the world.
He's the type of person who does whatever he says he's going to do.
He loves making fun of some of our classmates, in a joking way of course, "to de-sleepy-fy us and to defrost the tension" he had said.
He is merciless, nevertheless.
Whenever we've done wrong, he'll punish us accordingly.. Except for the last two weeks' afternoon's session, which we, as a whole class, had ditched altogether.
However we were still punished for telling him a lie.

The reason I had used the word 'father' to describe him isn't simply because he's our form teacher..it is because I realized that no matter what we did wrong, he'd still forgive us.

Well, if you point out that most of our misbehavior were simply innocent mistakes, I will still stand by my words.

Anyway, I'd also like to apologize to our teacher for being such a disappointment in our last few weeks. In spite of that, he still forgave us. :)

Oh. The title, right.
Like what I've stated before, our class had just been put together for a short 9 months period. In addition, we came from five different classes. Unlike other classes, by most are from two or three different classes. Hence the impact of graduation is much less severe for us than for the other classes.

Meaning: we're taking it kinda well.
In fact, no single tear was shed during the last day of our class. Which is why, we're not moping like the rest of them. The most we did was taking pictures together (and maybe some busking around during the teacher's day :D) while the other classes gathered together and spoke from heart-to-heart, had a huge cry-fest, made some scenes and etc.

Speaking of which...where had I put our class photo, again?
--

I'm kinda scared actually. It seems like everyone has had their future planned to the details. While me? I'm just chilling out.

2011-03-11T21:50:00.002+07:00

I know, I should be studying at the moment, with the ongoing exams and all but, I couldn't help this...this feeling I felt. This lump on my chest, I felt so uneasy that I could hardly concentrate on what I was doing or thinking or reading or anything.

I tried to find the reason behind this, but to no avail. (To those people who think that I should have been studying rather than consoling myself, just so you know, I'm more concerned with my psychological problems than I'm with my school grades. Sounds dramatic, but well, who cares?)

Anyhow, there had been a terrible natural disaster occurred today. Japan was hit by an earthquake with the strength of 8.9 Ritcher Scale, moreover, Tsunami decided to pay a visit to the said country too. I might not provide the most detailed information, you know there's Google you could always use.

During this incident, I was apparently taking my nap (it's normal, considering that I barely got any sleep the night before). And, coincidentally, I had a nightmare (sort of). Umm.. Though it had no connection whatsoever with the disaster, it's still a somekind of a nightmare.

I really wish I could help. Everybody does. (Or at least I thought so.)

However there were some heartless people who actually MAKE FUN of this misfortune. I mean, they wrote: "At least now Japan doesn't have to worry that Godzilla is about to come anytime soon." Or "Why didn't Doraemon do something?" Or "Did anyone help Pikachu?" Or "Well, it's what you call as karma."
Come on people.

So far, I read that there were about 60 people missing or died (I'm not so sure, forgive my lack of capability to concentrate at the moment).

I think I'm gonna cut this section short, as if I continue to write, I might just write the same thing again and again (I'm having a serious mind-blunting-ness)
Japan, please heal soon.

So, about my feelings/thoughts.
Like many other people in this world, I so definitely hate it when all of a sudden people start acting nice to you just because you're having an upper-hand of something tha they want. For example: popularity, money, help, or something else (I can't think of more examples)

And I felt like I'm being a hypocrite for writing this, as there are times when I DO suck up to some people for advantages.
I hate it. I wish I could change.

Aside of that, there's another thing that bugs the shit out of me too.
Apparently, as anti-social as I thought or claimed I was, I still feel lonely at times.
Like the feeling when you feel completely alone in a room full of people.
Or maybe, when you silently glance at the group of friends hanging out and laughing amongst themselves
Or perhaps, whenever the sudden urge to just chat with your bestfriend on the phone, but then realise that you have no one to call.
Or it could be the moments when you just want to text people just for the sake of it, then everyone is too busy with their own things.
Or when you have so much to say and no one to listen to.
Or when you reply to a group chat/thing and no one even comments about your words, or even if one replies, it's just out of pity and comes about 15 minutes later.

Everyday I try to show and act as if I had what I wanted and was content with my life just the way it is. Like I'm okay with what was happening.

Well people, I'm not.

--
Ranting really helps :)
Dear future self, have a better life than the current me.

Mad.

2011-02-26T22:01:00.002+07:00

I am mad at this very moment.
Not as in 'crazy' mad, but more to the 'angry' kind of emotion humans experienced.

And well, like many teenagers in this world, whenever I'm unhappy or angry, I drown myself in loud screamo music.
But at this moment, even though I've set the volume in full blast and set the loudest music I have ever had, I still can't reduce my said feeling.
All of sudden my headphones aren't soundproof at all. I can't block my feelings nor the world out.

The reason I'm mad, isn't that complicated.
I'm still a teenager, therefore I blame many of my mood swings on the damned teenager hormones which had troubled me oh-so-much for all my life (There I go again) far more often that I should really have.

Anyway, my mood worsened when I was disturbed at the 'time' I provided for myself. (I spend three to four hours on my room alone everyday, that helps me to bear with the necessity to communicate with the outer world) Today I tried to calm down when someone interrupted, it was like screaming in my mind while biting a few heads off at the process, but keeping a calm demeanour at the outside. Needless to say, I'm happy with the result as my mouth didn't go loose and said the things I didn't mean to. And the first trial had gone smoothly, however it's a whole different story later.

I don't know why I was still cranky after my (self-proclaimed) therapy session. I just got angry at nothing particularly at all.

And most important of all: I'm mad at myself.
Mad at my utter incompetence.
Mad at my irresponsibility for abandoning my duty as a child.
Mad at my own self for
Mad at my uncontrollable emotion.
Mad at my surrender to said emotion that I could do things I regretted so much later.
Mad at my constantly self-pity party I threw for myself.
Mad at my incapability to move on with my own life now that no one cares.

...and the list goes on.

Now, with the combination of music + rants of words, I finally managed to calm down...thankfully.

Anyway, I'm currently obsessed with this line of lyric:

I am not afraid to keep on living.
I am not afraid to walk this world alone.

Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance

Yeah, I'm trying to hypnotize myself.

The world is(not) wonderful

2011-01-27T19:52:00.004+07:00

Hey.

So I've been talking to a lot of Strangers lately. And, most of them have unique thoughts. I really could learn one or two things from them. They have different beliefs and a wide ranging variety of problems.

Today I met a stranger who thinks the world is not wonderful.

In my opinion, the world is NOT wonderful. But it can be viewed as anything we'd like it to be. Just simply tilt your head to side and you;d see that it's a whole different point of view. I'm not trying to ask you to be cheerful all the time. But look, by being an optimistic we could see the chances that most people might have missed. No matter how slim the chance it is. And besides, what's the point of being miserable? It'll only make you look one decade older or something.

And well, we ought to go out and look for those who really care, rather than just staying on the spot waiting for people to look at you. (Where most people only care for themselves or just way too busy to actually notice you)

I have to say that I'm loving my life right now. I just realize that I'm surrounded by so many wonderful people. They're just so amazing. :)

I love you all.

2011-01-12T22:07:00.002+07:00

Today, I learned about unfairness.
The story was quite simple, really.

There's a teacher in my school, who, in my opinion, has no capability whatsoever to actually teach accordingly. Aside from the lack of skill, said teacher also has the tendency of blabbering in our class. Most of the words which came out from said teacher's mouth are just bull. Be it about other people, or about said teacher's own self.

Needless to say, I find it impossible to pay any respect for this teacher.

Not only are those my reasons to disrespect this person. Apparently, another quality (or mis-quality) this teacher owns is: unfairness.

This teacher just LOVES to give us low scores, despite of our best efforts. Said teacher just simply gives marks according to his level of liking for the students. In other words, if the student could kiss said teacher's ass, then this student is guaranteed to pass (at least his daily scores).

Another bad trait of this teacher would be that this teacher is so racist that the whole race in our school of which said teacher was bad-mouthing would play nasty pranks on him (for the lack of words).

I don't know how anybody could like a teacher like this. It's quite amusing to watch if it doesn't concern my grades. I'm selfish, I know.
--

Today at the laboratory I was busted for checking on my cellphone. And yeah, the teacher noted me.

It definitely sucks.
--

Finally, I won't be carrying my laptop to school anymore starting from tomorrow!
The yearbook project has finished at last!
JOY TO THE WORLD!

2011-01-11T20:35:00.002+07:00

Ahhhhh... there goes my promise.. <.<

I failed to post yesterday.
My reason? It's pretty simple; I have to work for the yearbook.
Yeah..I slept at almost three yesterday. (Though I originally planned on getting no sleep at all...)

However, I still got one page to go..
*sigh*
Hence, I have yet to submit my work today...how shameful..

Nevertheless, despite of my lack of sleep the night before, I managed to get up pretty early (in my standard, at least) today.
The bell rang the moment I placed my bag down at my seat, whilst usually I was about two meters from the gate when I heard the bell.
Yeah, an improvement I know.
--

There are so many things that had happened today. Be it good, or bad.
I usually much prefer to deliver bad things first before good things, but this is a blog, so I'd just write it time-accordingly (yes, I fail my literature. BAWL)
--

Our form teacher, after satisfying himself by playing with the rate of our heartbeats, finally announced our ranks and distributed our report cards.

In my opinion, he's kind enough not to call anyone's parents or guardians.

Anyway, apparently there's an improvement in my grades and overalls, which quite lit up my day. :D
15 out of 48 /195 out of 535
Not exactly proud-worthy, but I'm quite content with my result; as much as to post the exact rank here. LOL
--

Then, the bad news.
Unfortunately, one of my friend's sister passed away today, due to an accident.
The exact detail is still quite blurry, but from what I heard, it's not pretty. At all.

I'm not going to lie or exaggerate, at the moment I heard the news I froze, then a big pang of sorrow hit me.

I give my sincere condolence and hope that she'll rest in peace. I believe she'll go to a better place.
And I also hope that my friend will stand tall and be strong. God will always bless us all...

--
On another note, there seemed to be a transferred student coming from Korea today. Needless to say, he became so well-known that the hallway where the class he is supposedly to enter is located was crowded with girls and curious students.

To be honest, I'm quite curious as well. But I don't think I'm THAT curious to exactly go and hunt him.

As his purpose to come at our school is to study the culture we have here, I won't be surprise if he writes bad things in his report after today.

Yeah, anyone would do so after being observed and watched like some new species for the whole day. People in my school just label him (though not exactly the labels of the western, just labels of opinions), like "handsome", "tall", "ugly", "plain", "hot body", etc.

Poor guy. He just comes to the wrong place at a wrong time.

2011-01-09T23:08:00.003+07:00

A post a day keeps the idiocy away.

Today was quite interesting.
Mom asked me and sis to go to the (somekind of) temple.
She had told us that she hoped people there would teach us things she couldn't teach. (Positive stuffs, of course.)

To be honest, I was kinda lazy at first. But really, after going there, surprisingly, I quite enjoy it.
The people there are very energetic and warm. :)
--

This week, apparently the topic was about parents and their virtue.
There was some kind of oontempolation. They asked us to close our eyes to, well, think about what they were going to say. And, they read about an article (that I have ever read about).
Here's the article (in Indonesian, from my inbox):

I LOVE U MOM !

Waktu kamu berumur 1 tahun , dia menyuapi dan memandikanmu ... sebagai balasannya ..... kau menangis sepanjang malam.

Waktu kamu berumur 2 tahun , dia mengajarimu bagaimana cara berjalan. sebagai balasannya ... kamu kabur waktu dia memanggilmu.

Waktu kamu berumur 3 tahun, dia memasak semua makananmu dengan kasih sayang .. sebagai balasannya ... kamu buang piring berisi makananmu ke lantai.

Waktu kamu berumur 4 tahun, dia memberimu pensil warna ... sebagai balasannya .. kamu corat coret tembok rumah dan meja makan.

Waktu kamu berumur 5 tahun, dia membelikanmu baju-baju mahal dan indah..sebagai balasannya ... kamu memakainya bermain di kubangan lumpur.

Waktu berumur 6 tahun, dia mengantarmu pergi ke sekolah ... sebagai balasannya ... kamu berteriak 'NGGAK MAU ...!'

Waktu berumur 7 tahun, dia membelikanmu bola ... sebagai balasannya, kamu melemparkan bola ke jendela tetangga

Waktu berumur 8 tahun, dia memberimu es krim ... sebagai balasannya.. .kamu tumpahkan dan mengotori seluruh bajumu

Waktu kamu berumur 9 tahun , dia membayar mahal untuk kursus-kursusmu ..sebagai balasannya ... kamu sering bolos dan sama sekali nggak mau belajar

Waktu kamu berumur 10 tahun, dia mengantarmu kemana saja, dari kolam renang sampai pesta ulang tahun .. sebagai balasannya ..... kamu melompat keluar mobil tanpa memberi salam

Waktu kamu berumur 11 tahun, dia mengantar kamu dan temen-temen kamu kebioskop .. sebagai balasannya ... kamu minta dia duduk di barisan lain
Waktu kamu berumur 12 tahun, dia melarangmu melihat acara tv khusus untuk orang dewasa ... sebagai balasannya ... kamu tunggu sampai dia keluar rumah

Waktu kamu berumur 13 tahun, dia menyarankanmu untuk memotong rambut karena sudah waktunya .sebagai balasannya.. kamu bilang dia tidak tahu mode
Waktu kamu berumur 14 tahun, dia membayar biaya untuk kemahmu selama liburan .. sebagai balasannya ... kamu nggak pernah menelponnya.

Waktu kamu berumur 15 tahun, pulang kerja dia ingin memelukmu ..... sebagai balasannya ... kamu kunci pintu kamarmu

Waktu kamu berumur 16 tahun, dia mengajari kamu mengemudi mobil .....sebagai balasannya ... kamu pakai mobilnya setiap ada kesempatan tanpa mempedulikan kepentingannya

Waktu kamu berumur 17 tahun, dia sedang menunggu telpon yang penting .. sebagai balasannya ... kamu pakai telpon nonstop semalaman,

Waktu kamu berumur 18 tahun, dia menangis terharu ketika kamu lulus SMA.. sebagai balasannya ... kamu berpesta dengan teman-temanmu sampai pagi

Waktu kamu berumur 19 tahun, dia membayar semua kuliahmu dan mengantarmu ke kampus pada hari pertama ... sebagai balasannya ... kamu minta diturunkan jauh dari pintu gerbang biar nggak malu sama temen-temen.

Waktu kamu berumur 20 tahun, dia bertanya 'Darimana saja seharian ini?'.. sebagai balasannya .... kamu menjawab 'Ah, cerewet amat sih, pengen tahu urusan orang.'

Waktu kamu berumur 21 tahun, dia menyarankanmu satu pekerjaan bagus untuk karier masa depanmu ... sebagai balasannya ... kamu bilang 'Aku nggak mau seperti kamu.'

Waktu kamu berumur 22 tahun, dia memelukmu dan haru waktu kamu lulus perguruan tinggi .. sebagai balasanmu ... kamu nanya kapan kamu bisa main ke luar negeri

Waktu kamu berumur 23 tahun, dia membelikanmu 1 set furniture untuk rumah barumu ... sebagai balasannya ... kamu ceritain ke temanmu betapa jeleknya furniture itu

Waktu kamu berumur 24 tahun, dia bertemu dengan tunanganmu dan bertanya tentang rencana di masa depan ... sebagai balasannya .. kamu mengeluh 'Aduh gimana sih kok bertanya seperti itu.'

Waktu kamu berumur 25 tahun, dia membantumu membiayai pernikahanmu ..... sebagai balasannya ... kamu pindah ke kota lain yang jaraknya lebih dari 500 km.

Waktu kamu berumur 30 tahun, dia memberimu nasehat bagaimana merawat bayimu ... sebagai balasannya ... kamu katakan 'Sekarang jamannya sudah beda.'

Waktu kamu berumur 40 tahun , dia menelponmu untuk memberitahu pesta salah satu saudara dekatmu .. sebagai balasannya kamu jawab 'Aku sibuk sekali, nggak ada waktu.'

Waktu kamu berumur 50 tahun, dia sakit-sakitan sehingga memerlukan perawatanmu ... sebagai balasannya ... kamu baca tentang pengaruh negatif orang tua yang numpang tinggal di rumah anaknya

dan hingga SUATU HARI, dia meninggal dengan tenang ... dan tiba-tiba kamu teringat semua yang belum pernah kamu lakukan, ... dan itu menghantam HATIMU bagaikan pukulan godam

MAKA ........................
JIKA ORANGTUAMU MASIH ADA .............
BERIKANLAH KASIH SAYANG DAN PERHATIAN LEBIH DARI YANG PERNAH KAMU BERIKAN SELAMA INI
JIKA ORANG TUAMU SUDAH TIADA ...........
INGATLAH KASIH SAYANG DAN CINTANYA YANG TELAH DIBERIKANNYA DENGAN TULUS TANPA SYARAT KEPADAMU

I LOVE U MOTHER
--

It was pretty moving, but then again, it was something else that made my heart wrenched.
Suddenly, the song Never Grow Up by Taylor Swift came up in my mind.
LOL, I'm gonna post the lyrics.

Taylor Swift - Never Grow Up
Your little hands wrapped around my finger
And it's so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you're dreaming
So I tuck you in and turn on your favorite nightlight

To you, everything's funny
You got nothing to regret
I'd give all I have honey
If you could stay like that

Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
I won't let nobody hurt you
Wont let no one break your heart
No one will desert you
Just try to never grow up
Never grow up

You're in the car on the way to the movies
And you're mortified your mama's dropping you off
At 14, there's just so much you can't do
And you can't wait to move out
Someday and call your own shots

But don't make her drop you off around the block
Remember she's getting older too
And don't lose the way that you dance around in your PJs getting ready for school

Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up

It could stay this simple
No one's ever burned
Nothing's ever left you scarred
Even though you want to, just try to never grow up

Take pictures in your mind of your childhood room
Memorize what is sounded like what your dad gets home
Remember the footsteps, remember the words said
And all your little brother's favorite songs
I just realized everything I had is someday gonna be gone

So here I am in my new apartment
In a big city, they just dropped me off
It's so much colder than I thought it would be
So I tuck myself in and turn my nightlight on

Wish I'd never grown up
I wish I'd never grown up
Oh I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
Could still be little
Oh I don't wanna grow up
It could still be simple

Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heat
And even throuhg toyu want to, please try to never grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just never grow up

The song is really nice with the soft relaxing guitar accompanying the melody.
I just love it! :D

2011-01-09T00:00:00.002+07:00

LOL
Look, I almost forgot about my promise to post each day.
Senile much?

--
Anyways, our class held a sort of mini photographing session at school today. But it doesn't mean that there were tons of photos, just a few simple yet crowded and fun photos.
I still could replay the scene pretty well...not that it's special or what, since it's barely 24 hours passed since then.
LOL, I sounded stupid.
--

About the yearbook..
The most progress I made is actually today (surprising?), where I practically jammed a few pieces of pictures with a bit tweaks here and there.

Needless to say, I sidetracked a lot the whole time.

Heck yeah, I'm THAT productive.
Anyhow, I don't think I can actually make it in time by this Monday.
*sigh*
--

Speaking of sidetracking, I just realized that I love sidetracking a lot.
Like, for example, while say I was playing a game with several choices, and despite of knowing the right answer, I still will choose the wrong ones just to see the reaction.

...
Come to think of it, I guess many people do that too, don't they? <.<;
--

Actually, I don't really like the idea of writing the thing I was going to write.
So I decided not to write about it.
There you have it.

HAHA.

2011-01-07T16:42:00.002+07:00

I'm going to leave school pretty soon, while more procrastination was performed at the process.
Really, I didn't change that much since the moment I step on the teenage..I guess.

Perhaps it's time for me to grow up and well, be more mature.
However, just like many others, the me inside doesn't really want to do so..

I'm a human, therefore, I'm an insatiate kind of being.
Yeah, sue me.
--

My writing skill has seriously deteriorated. I can't even write an appropriate paragraph to save my life. Tons of things jumbled up in my mind; so many words piled up waiting for an outbreak, yet I couldn't arrange them in order for people to easily comprehend it.
You know, sometimes, in the middle of writing (or thinking), there are some kind of voices whispering sentences for me. Most of the time they are related to the matter I'm writing (or thinking) about, but yet again, it's hard for me to find a fitting space for these words to line in.
For example, I heard, "One thing leads to another" just now while writing the paragraph above.

However, the sad thing is: after writing and editing for so damn long, I still feel that this piece of thing is not decent enough to be presented.
Said reason made me scrap most stuffs I write.

I know, writing is a challenge, and also a kind of art. And I've always admired people with great writing skill. Having this skill, in my own words and definition, means being capable of mesmerizing people with the depiction of the things around and dragging people into the world the author had so magically arranged.

Yes, I could hear, see, smell, and feel just by reading a book. It's like you yourself entered the world of the book and had your own adventure in a totally different universe.

Words are wonderfully powerful.

I'm a bookworm.
Sue me.

So, I suppose it's enough of the self-pity, and I decide that I'll post on the blog (hopefully) everyday for my brain to catch up.

--
Speaking of brain catching up, I found myself lately being not able to speak my mind out. It's like, those awkward moments when you meet your crush. However in my case, there's no crush present, just ordinary people. I'm not nervous, just...can't say it out.

It's going to be a problem for me.
Great.
--

Though my hands are somewhat full with all those projects scattered around for me to pick (putting aside some of those which were shoved on me), I still find myself pretty much bored.
I just stared at these projects with droopy eyes. And also, I am a (self-proclaimed) professional procrastinator. Therefore, my progress is really damn slow.

I'm ashamed of myself. Seriously.

--

I suppose I could use a new year resolution thingy or two and prayed for a better self. Hopefully.

Recently..

2010-08-29T23:36:00.005+07:00

Ha..I bet by now you're getting more and more tired of me writing about my scarcity in writing. So I guess I'll just skip that part now.

As for the reason why I found my interest in writing back, well..it's because I came across a blog of a school mate and I must say, I'm impressed with her English. So yeah, to compensate with my fall-backs in terms of improvement, I HAVE TO write more.

Speaking of writing, I just remembered about the piles of outlines and ideas of stories that are still in form of .txt files waiting for me to finish. :/ I'm planning to continue each of them soon, as I have far more free-time and pressure than I used to have.

Yep, that's true. I'm kicked out from my previous class. To say I'm not sad is a total bullshit, but life goes on. I want to experience the new environment and, possibly, to gain new friends. As far as I know, being able to accept an alien atmosphere is one of the many aspects in growing up. So I take all these changes as a challenge and training.

Frankly, those words are supposed to be written a month or so ago. =_=

Tomorrow, (or to be exact, this morning, it's some time past 12 already) I'm going to have a remedial test. My first remedial test ever, with math as the subject. I just hope I won't flunk it the way I flunk my monthly math exam.

Wish me luck? Y / N
*insert a smile here*
--

Blog skins
At first I wanted a clean and simple look with not so much of details for my blog, so I used the newest kind of template. However, after changing my blog's template to the .xml ones for a few weeks, I finally decided that the old kind of template suits me better, and well, like what it's seen, I reverted it to what it used to be. I like editing and altering the look of my blog until it reaches my taste. Coding isn't that bad when you know how to do it.

In spite of my interest in an original template of blog, I still find myself too lazy to actually make a skin. :/
--

Random thoughts

See, I have this bad attribute in myself: I have no trust in my ability.
Almost zero trust.
I shrink whenever I saw someone better than me, and needless to say, my confidence also vapors into thin air whenever someone criticizes something that I think I'm almost good at. People always succeed to make me reconsider and wonder about what I have along with my capabilities.

I really hate it.

One of my teachers had told me as well, that I really don't realize my competence, and I can't stand firm with my own thoughts; I'm easily influenced by people (another drawback of myself), he had said.

Man, I know it's a BAD idea to post about my insecurity here, but whatever. I'm just writing just so the future me will be able to come over my (soon-to-be) past misconception.
--

Recent craze

Lately, I'm infatuated with a Taiwanese contestant in a singing contest called 超級偶像, or 超偶 for short (in English it's called Super Idol). His voice is just..beautiful. I melt along with his smooth voice..in my opinion. Besides, he strongly reminded me of somebody (any guesses anyone? ;p ). And, oh! He plays guitar too! Really good at that too.

Anyway, his name is 吳海文, or Kevin Wu (as he had said that his friends called him Kevin, and his surname is 吳). He studied in MI, America.

Here's an original song composed by him.

the Lyric

《情歌日誌》曲/詞: 吳海文

又一次走到人多的地方
想讓熱鬧掩蓋昨夜的不安
買一杯咖啡卻忘了放糖
喝下愛情的苦澀要怎麼遺忘

不要被你看穿，我想你的模樣
畢竟你已經是別人的另一半
只好找個藉口，讓我好好偽裝
偽裝沒有你也沒甚麼兩樣

夜深了，人寂寞了，寫著日記想著誰呢
心酸著，照片裡的，我們笑得那麼羞澀
該忘的，都該忘了，也沒甚麼好記得
只是我該如何釋放，每個夜晚心裡多出的重量

也許愛情都是這樣，昨日的溫暖淪為今日的難堪

my Rough Translation

Once more walking to a place with many people
Wanna let the crowd conceal yesterday night's uneasiness
Bought a cup of coffee but forgot to add sugar
Drank up the bitterness of love, how can I forget?

Don't wanna let you see through，my face when I think of you
After all you had become someone else's half (here it means someone else's lover)
I could only find an excuse，to let me pretend well
Pretending that there are no difference [in me] without you

The night is deep, people are lonely, who is in mind while writing diary?
Grieving heart, we smiled shyly in the photograph
What should be forgotten，had been forgotten，there's nothing good to be remembered either
It's only how I have to let go, every night the weight in my heart increase

Maybe love is just like this, the warmth yesterday had become today's embarrassment

I ♥ Him!

uh..hi?

2010-06-27T00:03:00.001+07:00

It's been ages since I last posted.
Really.
It made this blog seems like an orphan too.

And it seems like I've grown rusty in writing too. ugh. :/

Anyway, it's holiday; summer.
I'm definitely wasting it away like some stupid shit I am.

ARGH.

(So I changed the blog layout again.)

NEW!!

2010-03-25T23:00:00.002+07:00

So, at last, I finally came up with some spirit to post something.
Seems like forever since my last writing, true?

School is usual. Nothing big.
Exam's drawing closer. Hell for me.
Material's so many. I am lazy.

Yea

--
Life goes on and we're getting older each passing second. As time passed by, I can't help but wonder about the future. So many things to be considered; so many things to be figured out; so many confusing things. Growing up makes me see things in a different point of view. I just don't wanna grow up.
We're going to enter our senior year in about 3 months time. 3 very short months.
(And yet, I didn't think I've done anything of importance this year, which is a major let-down.)

Now, even though it's not the right time, thinking about graduation made my heart thumped really fast. It reminds me when I first moved to the new class; the feeling I felt towards my dearest friends, definitely not the best kind of feeling ever. I hate the sad nagging feeling in my chest.

But thinking about growing up is causing even more palpitation from my heart.
The freedom, responsibility, novelty, and all other things that are waiting for me to uncover obviously cause strange sensations towards my emotions; excitement, fear, impatience, denial, confusion and a whole lot of other emotions are stirring and churning inside demanding to break free.

But one thing is for sure,
Life is not a field of daisies.
We might be on top of the world today, but we might fall the next.
We've got upside and downside, right?

'Face the truth, solve the problem and enjoy the ride'
that I kept telling myself.

--
How does it feel when you lost a friend?
No. That's a rhetorical question. Please answer nothing.

I think I just did. (lost a friend, duh.)
Or maybe, it's all in my mind.

It's not something recent, really; it could be considered as an old story perhaps.
I've grown quite close with this person for quite a while, we talked about so many things, almost everything indeed. Never had a day passed without us chatting around, even when we're so far away on holiday, we still managed to contact each other and vented out our journey of the day.

And yet, we still fell out of it just for a reason:
A girl.

I don't know why, but I think it's the reason.

Flashing back, it might be my fault as well.
I don't really like this girl's presence, so I decided to ignore him, and he did too.
So, that's how.

EWWWW I CAN'T BELIEVE I WROTE SOMETHING CHEESY LIKE THIS!! ARGHARGHAGRHAGRHAGHGHGHGH
IGNORE PLZ

Loud voices

2009-10-01T23:21:00.001+07:00

Loud sounds, voices, or any form of that highly annoyed me..a lot.

I'm currently in my mother's room, and I much prefer my own room (it provides my daily serenity and tranquility needs). Besides, it's damn hot here!(too huge a room, not enough air-conditioner to cool)

Why on earth did I end up being in here?
Well, my father is currently off the city, for business purpose I suppose, and my mother didn't enjoy being companion-less. So, there's it.

Oh, the title.
You see, mother is talking with her brother (who had some kind of conflicts with his boss and is now living in the different city with us) in the phone and boy, her voice is thundering, loud as hell (thankfully, the room is quite sound-proof), and damn, my ears are practically begging for me to do some cover up.
Ugh.

At least she stopped calling now.
However, she didn't quite stop talking.
Dang.

Right now she's watching some (in my opinion) stupid Korean drama while in front of her is the TV displaying another cheesy soap-opera that continues for, like, forever (I think the grandchildren of the first main characters had already had children).
Ugh.
What a waste of electricity.

Another thing I couldn't stand is: She just couldn't stop yapping!
She practically criticized me from head to toes!
She couldn't stop asking me to go to the saloon or beautician or things like that.
Damn..enough said..I guess.

I think I might as well stop now, seeing this is the third time she asked me what I was doing with my phone.

2009-09-27T22:48:00.000+07:00

It's almost 11pm now.
And I'm still awake, full of energy at that, which is quite a problem for me (tomorrow's a Monday, sweetheart.)

I don't know when it started, but I find my energy level (or lack thereof) is very, very low during day times. I can barely stand one-hour-lesson without nodding off. Whilst during night times, I can survive without having to rest my eyes. (I'm serious. There's a time, when I couldn't sleep before the clock hit 5 am. Damn. I had to spend the whole night alone, no one was there to chat with me. And I thought boredom caused sleepiness?)

Yeah, I know it's not exactly that late yet, as it's not yet pass midnight, but still I'm a night person (not quite a good news really, as basically, I'm a student, which means my life proceeds on day times). Cheers.

I think that explains why I post now.
And I'm in desperate need of ranting now (to ignore my boredom or stuffs.)

I'm currently using my new laptop, a tablet PC to be exact, and I hate it.
It's not pressure sensitive (obviously pointless, as my purpose to buy this thing is for drawing); very expensive (I love money to the bits you know); the letters in the keyboard are very small (they are practically cramped) which have to be pressed really, really hard causing me to be a whole typo (fuck the letter 'i'); the network adapter is lousy (I swear I have to push the cable very very hard, to the point where my fingers hurt, to get this thing connected to internet); and the touch pad is really stupid (I practically slammed my fingers to get its response).
Ugh. What is this thing?
Specially designed for Barbarians laptop? (Hello? I have to use loads of energy just for typing!)

I much prefer my old lappy.
However, it's almost dead now; it's sick (viruses).
My bad.

Hmmph...

---

I'm 15 this year (and will get older next January), in the sophomore year of high school, yet I have no idea where I will go for university, let alone the major I'll be in.

I've been thinking about taking the design major, but I don't think myself is qualified enough.
My fear of lacking creativity leads me to confusion and seeing that the skill of designs needs somebody to employ makes me dither (working under somebody isn't exactly the best thing in the list if you see).
However, if I take this major, I can always work in the fashion department, opening a boutique to start off?
Well, it's only my dream.

Next in line would be Management.
This sounds quite intriguing, as I always dream of being a General Manager of a hotel, preferably five-star hotels.

Yes, I know I dream big.
And I'm working hard on it (or am I not?).

Whatever.

---

Wow. It's 12.21 AM now, and I felt no sleepiness yet.

Ugh.

I think I'll just have some browsing. (out of ideas on what to write)

Ciao.

2009-09-22T16:42:00.000+07:00

This is just another typical Tuesday.

I'm in my study room adjacent to my parents' room the door of which is opening right now..*sigh* and there's some "sermon" going on in that very place with its sound not very quiet I tell you..

This time it's my brother's turn.

Apparently they're having a "talk" with my brother for having a girlfriend..whose Chinese zodiac is the same as my brother, snake.

You see,my mother and father are still pretty much Chinese-born, leading them into keeping the traditional culture, in which they believe people born under the sign snake in Chinese zodiacs aren't allowed to be together, as it's sai to bring bad luck or stuffs I don't quite understand.

This isn't the first time my brother's girlfriend being disapproved by my parents.

There's once, a girl, quite pretty, came into the picture.
Well, mother and father didn't disapprove much about the girl (dunno why), but my grandmother (father's) didn't like this girl very much (still dunno why).

They later broke up, not under any pressure of the families or things like that.
They agreed to go on separate ways as long distance relationship doesn't work well. (they thought so.)

Whatever. Doesn't really concern me though.

2009-09-17T20:31:00.004+07:00

Haha
I decided to post something at last!
LOL

I won't say much about my absence though.
Long story short: Lost of interest + insufficient time (not like I was busy or what, just...distracted)

Okay, let's concern the present.
It is holiday (finally)!
I am soooo glad by this fact now. Ha-ha!

(Oh! Tomorrow is Joan's birthday, greet her if you wish to. :D)

Anyways, I'm really, really thrilled knowing I won't have to wake up at 6am in the mornings for 9 days straight! (I think I've pointed this out, haven't I? Whatever.)
However happy I am, I still have no idea whatsoever on how to spend my holiday...(actually got plans with family, but I'm not so excited with it or anything so yeah...)
My friends are (almost) all out of town these days and well...I think I'll just stay at home and rot...=.=

I better find good stuffs to do.

School life doesn't suck that much..ditched some lessons (pssh supposed to be secret <.<), worse thing is that I haven't got any of the subjects stuck in my mind yet (and the monthly exams is like, in 1 month. Great.).

Whatever.

I decided to change my blog's skin too (along with this comeback post. HA. comeback!)
Had been editing like crazy just now.
And right now is like 2.23 in the morning for screaming out loud.

I better catch up with some sleep now dammit.
Nity nite.

2009-05-04T19:42:00.003+07:00

Soooo, yeah
I'm still alive, of course, in a healthy state indeed.
Too bad?
LOL.
Well, I admit, this blog was kinda deserted for quite long.
Why?
Why?
Why?
...Idunno?

Anyways, today was a birthday of a friend of mine.
And, we kinda bought a jacket for him.
Which was, like, wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was- whatever, the point is, he had quite a good time unwrapping it.
LOL.
Too bad I didn't take any pictures.

The test result?
La-La-La-La-La
What is test result?
Some kind of instant canned food which can be eaten without having it cooked? ("stole" this statement from a friend~ L.O.L!)

Ok, the test sucks and I hate exams!
Who doesn't?
And speaking of exams, one is about to come and show its ugly face to me.
Ugh.
And it was the final exam for my junior year.
Double ugh.
I hate getting older.
Moreover, I hate to graduate, but that doesn't mean I don't wish to get promoted!
But, it's just that, I don't want to actually leave school.
There are so many wonderful (and bad) things at school!
Whatever, I just love (and hate) school.
LOL.

And..Oh!
Do you believe in 2012?
I dunno, it kinda scared the hell out of me.
here and here
...
and Part I(Indonesian) also Part II(Indonesian)
I can't comment

..

2009-03-21T10:58:00.002+07:00

So, yeah, how long was it since I last posted?
Forever? I assume so too.

However, life is just life, nothing special happens.
And yeah, exam's near, yet I had prepared nothing for it.
I supposed, the torture of studying will soon arrive.

Haizzz

Boring

Sometimes, I wonder, am I too dramatic or anything (as in "lebaii" thing), for that I felt total suffer for not getting what I really wanted.
Just like a dandelion seed.
All I can do is just watching it floating around deciding where the wind take it.
I know it's not only me to want that thing, but I can't help but feel selfish. I want only me to own it.
And to my fortune, the thing is currently flying within my hand reach, yet I had no courage to touch it, let alone catch it.
Watching it floating near was bliss, but having it mine was more.
What I hate the most is that the fact which told me that the possibility where I could have lost that thing is quite big, as there was someone out there who was much braver than I was jumping as high as one could to catch it.
However, whispers told me that I should stay here with open hands waiting it to come at its own will.
I know, it was like, hopeless.
But I can still wish, can't I?

2009-02-03T10:30:00.000+07:00

Skipped school today.
A relief for me.
School sucks.
How I wish to never go there again.

2 days to go!

2009-01-31T13:38:00.007+07:00

2 days till the school started.

I realized, partially feared, the amount of homework aren't decreasing in any way (as I hadn't even touched any of it yet.)
I also know, that it would be less than 48 hours before I had to meet the teachers, to my misfortune again.
*sighh*

I was told that High School Days should have been the greatest time in your life. But NOO, the fact sucks like this.
I mean, how am I supposed to enjoy myself when homework kept on bashing itself to my face? Pretty much understandable, isn't it? (note: sarcasm)

Not to mention the pressure and confusion about choosing one from science or social class.
I'm aware that most people said that science classes are better than social classes. But, one of my friends told me that she regretted having chosen the science class. As most of her free times were dedicated to studying science.
I believe science won't really be useful when you're looking for job or whatever.
The fact is economics rules the world, scientists and jobs equivalent to that are economically ruled, am I wrong?
They need money to do researches, and the money came from the boss, the bosses are basically economical knowledge supplied. (+10 points for social) (-10 points for science)

Yea, my ambition is being boss. LOL.
Greedy brat. (+3 points for social) (-3 points for science)

Besides, I don't really believe my brain will be capable to study the whole thing, you understand right? (+5 points for social) (-5 points for science)

And, I think I'm more interested in studying alternative stuffs, as in, designing clothes, music, writing and stuffs like that. (+2 points for social) (-2 points for science)

So far :
Social = 20 points (+20 points)
Science = -20 points (-20 points)

But there are some people who tell me to enter the science class too.

Such as one of my good friends, who got into the social class.
I'm not clear of her intention of suggesting me so.
I mean, she said she had fun in her class, but she told me that I'll be capable in the science class and suggested me to choose the class only.
Honestly, I prefer freedom to knowledge.
However, I don't wish to be fully retarded though.

Another friend of mine said the same thing.
I told her, "I don't want to be a doctor or anything like that. I suppose social is better."
"But science can get into anything." she reasoned.
I was baffled, and answered, "I guess I just have to take extra lesson for the social needs, right?"
She just shrugged. (+5 points for science) (-5 points for social)

But I think the greatest hindrance that made me doubt to choose the social class was, My Dad.
He wished me to get into the science class, "Your brother was stupid, but I believe you would do better," he remarked. "Get into the science class."
Can I refuse?
I guess not. (+15 points for science) (-15 points for social)

So far :
Social = 0 points (-20 points)
Science = 0 points (+20 points)

Conclusion:
I'm confused, puzzled, perplexed, disoriented, mixed up.
I just don't know.

Whatever.

Anyhow, just informing you, I changed my blog skin again!
How is it?

I'm BakkK!!!1!!11 OMG!!!1!!

2009-01-27T21:33:00.018+07:00

LOL
Don't mind the title, just some fan-girl emphasizing.
I'm bored.

But more importantly is, I'M REALLY BACK!!! XD
As in, I'm not dead.
Nuh-uh, still kickin' here.

Well, the fact is, I'm still, indeed had lost interest in writing since a few-ahem-loads of days ago.
True.
And hey, me myself didn't understand the reason though.

But again, I had to apologize to my blog here, for ditching it quite a fair time enough.
Sorry.. TT_TT

On second thought, I am really really really lazy to write, so I decided to just post some ... presentable pictures.

BEWARE THE PICTURE FLOOD!!! XU

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In Singapore

Comment: Yea, arrived here at midnight (1am in the morning, thank you very much), we kinda stayed here only for 1 day-I mean, some hours, yea, that's true. My mum and dad dragged me to a hotel, while my sister skipped her way to my brother's residence (rented room, I didn't actually got the chance to enter or whatsoever).

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In HK

Comment: Yes, arrived at HK, finally, it was exhausting, and mum decided that we're going to visit her usual shopping spot (which resulted bags of whatever, sore-feet, crinkled-face, and a grumpy-mood). Oh, it is really interesting *rolls eyes*. Heck no, she tried to buy some ew-looking skirts for us (you know, I'm not a big fan of skirt nor I am a great shopper, with books as an exceptional alternative). Yadda yadda, whatever.
So you see the pictures of buildings (2nd and 3rd one), I took it when I was on the bus, I know, the bus there's velocity was great, and it was when it met the traffic I snapped a pic. And, despite its season as in winter, the sun still glared at us mercilessly, fear the global warming. RAWR!

Comment: Then, we decided to go to the mainland (is it what you call that? Man, I'm too lazy to recall nor to ask my dad), so these were on the harbour, I think.
The pictures where there is a feathery wing-attached-'flying'-bag thing, and the people-flooded-stairs with a big clock on were yeah, in the harbour (then again, I'm not sure what the place called). Whatever, I liked the sheep, so I took a picture.
And yeah, it's my sahhhhdowwwww thereeee, LOL.
Ohh, I risked my phone while taking the water piccies, yes, it earned me a long reprimand from my dear mum. Fantastic.
P.S. Please tilt your head for some pictures, you know, I'm too lazy to actually rotate it first before actually posting it, so yeah, sorry.

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In Guang Zhou

Comment: Next on, we went to Guang Zhou(GZ), with train. And boy, you should full view the first picture I posted, I saw it on a taxi, and it was pretty hilarious if you ask me. LOL
Uhh.., don't mind the random lion there.
Then we went walking around-I mean sightseeing.
You see the kid with lemon head? It was cute wasn't it? I think so too. That's the reason I decided to keep a memory on it. I drank something with mango and it was pretty good too. The theme song was kinda cute as well, it kept on chanting, "Looolipopp" thingy. XD

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In Macao (Venetian)

Comment: Yess yess I know, I know, this place was ENORMOUS. HECK NO, I didn't stay there, as it was sooo soooo soooooooooooooooo expensive. Ugh, wish I could stay there. And duuuude, it was like having another city inside a building with canals and boats on it! CANALS! Can you imagine that??!!! Aghhhhh.
You should really see the amount of people on the harbor with the destination to this friggin' hotel!
Ohh, the dude in white there, in the last picture, was, holy cow, COOL! He was like, statue, standing there unmoved, and when you threw some money, he would move and pose, I mean, this one was for real! He moved like he was a robot, no single humanity movement was visible. And THAT was AWESOMEE!
P.S. He was HILARIOUS when he winked! LOLOL
P.P.S. For people who have no idea what I'm rambling about >> Check this out!
P.P.P.S. heck, my picture can't even express its enormous-ness, LOLOL FYI, this was only a piece of west (or east, can't really remember) part of the ho-ho-ho-hotelL!!1!!!!!!1

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Back in HK

Comment: Back in HK. We coincidentally came across a friend of mine with her family (my mum was befriended with her mother too, just so you know), and we kinda had lunch together, in a Thai restaurant. It was delicious. Seriously, I had never tasted Thai food untill that day (sad isn't it?)
And about the Negi there, LOL, I just like it, so I took photo of it! Pretty? LOL

Comment: So, finally, we're going home, and I liked the sky at the time. Same thing, picture was taken in a bus, that's why it was rather ... lop-sided. It was in the evening and the sun was setting.

PHEW! Finally finished the posting!
And the date, well, today was actually 31st January, I had finally got the spirit to write.
LOL
I put off the task of writing on 27th January.
Be hold, the POWER of LAZINESS!! YEAHHHH!!

&& I had posted a lot.
Don't I deserve a cookie?
I believe, yes.

P.S. The truth is, I haven't posted ALL the pictures (which almost reached the number 200 of its quantity). But I decided these are far than enough. LOL

See ya in 2009! :D

2008-12-23T17:00:00.001+07:00

XD today is so cool!
Not only it's my last day of my exam!
I also got to buy a guitar! XD
Well, it's really cool! OMG!
Anyway, mum's dragging me abroad..and I as well have no time to write any longer..besides I'm using mobile phone, which is not so convenient..
So..I gotta go now..I suppose self will be back on January.. See you then!
And oh, my early greetings of Christmas and New Year! :D

XD

2008-12-08T16:23:00.003+07:00

Played in Rain just now~
Fun?
Hell Whola uber super duper Fun FUNN FUNN!!!!!
I am weird? Yea, pretty much.
Wasn't playing in the rain supposed to be unhealthy? Well, Duh. I don't care at all.
Ignore the fact I've already caught something.

Well?
The conclusion is: It's hella fun in the rain!

Besides,
I've already got some cold.
And I'm sure it won't get worse.

Right?

Helloww~

2008-12-06T20:43:00.003+07:00

So, finally the time I write arrive (Horray!! uh... <.<") And yea, there were supposed to be a lot of stuffs for me to write now. But I was like, forgot almost half of them. I mean, all of them. My mind was totally blank, and have no idea what to write now. And there are 3 days straight for me to slack around Oh man. I'm busy now. So, I'll just post pictures now (for Alice)
There were ridiculously a lot, so I decided to just post a bit, the ones I'm proud of here..hehe..

A bit messy..., sorry.. ^^"

The so-called-teacher's day

2008-11-25T22:11:00.006+07:00

Yep, it's teacher's day buddies.

What does it mean?
Ans: Short periods of studies, more free times, roaming around times, etc etc..

Remember what I said about the "assembling session" thingy yesterday, along with the wondering if it will rain?
LOL
Both of them happened actually.
Well, one of my friends blamed me for the rain.
(I told her that I was hoping it would rain today. LOLs)
However, the assemble was still on going.
Sighhh.
The truth is, I don't even listen or paying attention to whatever in front of us.
To put it simply, it's really BORING.
Oh man.
Seeing my friends to share the same kind of feelings with me, we actually played (the smallest game ever-more like teasing each other?).
You know, those small stuffs, like a bit of kicking, a bit of pushing each other, whispering jokes, secretly laughing at the teachers, talking about nonsense, and so on.
It's pretty cool. LOL

And as I've foreseen (wtf?) before. It's HOT.

Yea, HOT.
Despite it's raining and the calming breeze was blowing gently. It's still HOT.

The only thing to be blamed was the oh-so-important-hat. It just heated our head, almost boiling it. The result? We all had our heads wet by the sweat.
Nice smell. Ugh.

Thank God the headmistress didn't throw a fit on us again. (Good news)

So, they promised to 'release' us on 8am. Well, they delayed it. Oh geez. I kinda had the urges to just leave the instant I saw my old buds around, but actually canceled it, as there was still a tint of fear haunted me.

Oh, I forgot to mention that the moment I heard someone (a moderator? Is that how you call the person who leads and gives instructions to the students? I mean the one who shouts, "BERSIAP!!" thingy.. No idea? Oh well..) shouting (more like screaming his lungs out) the command, me along with other friends instantly laughing out loud.
Not too loud though.. LOL..

All right, all right.
They finally let us go (a.k.a 'release') not before giving us a warning about something that related to "mustn't go upstairs into the classes" stuffs.
Whatever. Most of the community don't seem to care anyway.
I'm one of the ones who don't care.
LOL.

I honestly wished to enjoy the events that the school actually held, but immediately brushed the thoughts off when I saw the number of people crowding near the stage. So, we (me and buds) rushed upstairs.

Can you guess the first word that floated in my mind the moment I stepped into a full-AC room (a.k.a classroom)?
It's: "Heaven"

LOL. How ironic.

And yes, as usual, a too long break will be entirely boring if you had nothing better to do other than to watch the guys there playing a small ball by nuzzling it with their heads.
*sighhh*
So, to have myself busied, I played bubbles with my friend.
Hehe.
But then again, the guys laughed at us, saying we're too childish. Not that I care.
I deliberately blew the bubbles to their way.
LOL.
&& ohh, I took photos, but maybe I'll upload them later. Hehe..

But then, again, I got bored with playing bubbles.
I saw one of my friend, Deny, brought his guitar along with him, which then reminded me of his promise to teach me to play the instrument.

He non-stopped-ly laughing at my short fingers. Ugh. And how I can't master a single short line of the song (is it OK to use 'line'?) called Qing Tian.
An uberly awesome song by Jay Chow (XD).

But I have to admit it. I suck at playing guitar. And my fingers hurt like hell since he was using the 'steel-stringed' type.

There's actually a guy named Randy who helped me in learning as well.
He kept on saying, "Your finger had leaned on the wrong string." or "Don't lean your finger on the other string." and stuffs like that.
I was starting to get pissed with my idiocy.
Then another guy came, called Vincensius (VDK), asking things like, "Wow, can you play it?"
I shortly answered,"No."
There's no need to ask if this VDK guy can play the instrument or not. He played the bass in a band.
*sighhh* I'm really jealous of those who can actually play an instrument (well, a recorded is not counted >.>)
He and Randy started to converse things I can't possibly comprehend, things like, "What key does she using? Is that even a key? (-.-')"
While Randy answered, "she was using B minor for bass.." so on so on. I can't really recall. ^^"

Let's just ignore them, won't us?
&& FINALLY!!
I learned the first line, though I still suck on it.

Nevermind!
As long as I can at least play a bit. ;p

BUT!!!
There's a random guy who 'kidnapped' the guitar.
NOOOOOO
TT_TT

It means, the studying sessions had ended.
Cheers <.<

Anyway, I guess I planned to buy one for myself.
Hehe~
With my own money of course! :D

Then, there's this thing happened.
A pair (lols) of seniors fought in front of the class.
It terrified me.
I mean, dude, they were punching one another mercilessly.
I thought they were going to broke each's head.
OMG.
So I escaped the scene immediately.

Hehe

Wow, I guess I must stop here.
Well, then, see ya~

GYAHHHHHHHHHHhh

2008-11-24T22:11:00.002+07:00

Time to post! Post Post Post!

Oh My God~

How long has it been since I last posted again?
Ages?
I guess so~

LOL

I just have to post today.

Guess what?
I made my mum uberly angry to me yesterday.

But at lastt
Today she finally wants to talk with me.
And yea,
it takes a lonngggg time for me to finally had my apology accepted.

:D

Anyway (busway, railway, whatever), tomorrow's teachers' day.
U know what it means?

NO STUDYING!!!
YAY!!!

Ahem Ahem
I lied, the studies will still get going.
But, we're going to study for half time only.
YAY!

But still, we have to go through a certain "assembling session"
Ohhhh, it's going to be hot.
And I mean hot.

But I wonder if it would rain tomorrow.
LOL

And oh, one more thing.
I guess it's almost time for me to change this blog's layout yea?
I'm starting to get bored of it already.
xp

So I guess it's enough now (or it isn't?), I'll stop here.
;p

I'm getting more and more Senile nowadays.. AGHH

2008-11-13T21:24:00.006+07:00

Sure I am, I mean, I've like, been forgetting my friends' birthdays!
Today I almost forgot one!
O My God.

How stupid.

Well, here are some stuffs I found~
It's 'stamps'
Disclaimer!
I DO NOT POSSIBLY CREATE OR MAKE ANY OF THESE AMAZING ARTS!
PLEASE CLICK ON THE THUMBNAILS TO BE NAVIGATED TO THE SUPPOSEDLY PAGE OF THESE ARTS!
AND RIGHT-CLICKS ARE DISABLED, MIND YOU

If any of these arts' artists are in the state of disapproval of my posts here, please do tell me.
And I apologized first if I offend anyone.
Thanks!

Anyway, I think these stamps are awesome, and they're so hella true!
I really really like them!

Well...

2008-11-12T21:47:00.015+07:00

I'm just outta the ideas for the title of the blog.

Oh gosh, tell you what.

Our class had the honor of getting a visit from the headmistress.
Her purpose of paying us a visit us was to actually howling at us.
And that really creep me out of self.
I was so hella terrified when she was examining the so-called-questionnaire.
Oh man, are you trying to kid me?
I could even feel my face color being drenched away from my face.

Nevertheless, I still had the ability to blab the whole story to my best buddies.
LOL
I'm really weird yea?
I suppose so.

Well, again, I lost the ability to rant any longer, so I decided to just post pictures I supposedly have taken earlier today.
LOL.
It maybe weird, but please don't laugh.. XD

This are the piccies I snapped in the car at my journey (?) to home.
LOL.
I'm just really bored.
And another reason why I took a snap is that the clouds look cute, I mean, they looked like either stairs or pathways.
Hehee~

Anyway, here are some other shots.

The rabbit here was bought quite long ago, I can't really remember anymore.
Hehee.
But one thing for sure; it surely attracts a lot of attentions.. hehee, even when its paint has got peeled off.
It's hanging on my pencil case now.
Surely, I really like this bunny.
Hehe!
Oh, and, the picture here is taken at the classroom (X-01) on my desk, quite a time ago I can't really remember.
Hehee

While this pic here, I took it from the some kind of balcony near the stairs at school.
But I don't think it's called balcony, so I'll just describe it a bit.
It's like you know, the space between the turns(up and down) of the stairs, and the space there was actually quite vacant and there's a 'big hole' on the wall (it's designated to be like that mind you) which allow us to have a look outwards.
Got it? No? Gosh, I suppose I just have to increase my ownself's ability of describing plus the vocabularies. I could really need those very much.
Anyway, it was taken quite a while ago, the exact 'when' was remained forgotten by me.
Oh me.

Need not to explain much. Can you guess only by plainly looking at this picture?
Well, if you hadn't guessed it, I'll just tell you straight.
It's from the Halloween!
At the 31st October 2008 of course!
Well, I only managed to snap one pic here, it's waaaay too dark there.
Isn't it cool?? XD

This pic is obviously taken earlier today.
Hehee~
Again, I like the sky here, it looks soo fluffy, just like cotton.
And again, it was taken at car.
Hehee~

Soo, I guess I'll end it here.
Did I entertain you?
Hehee~
OK then~

Bye! :D

P.S. Actually I saw the moon appeared at day, but I can't took the photographs.., it's way too small! :_:

Lazy Afternoons (is it morning now? Or afternoon will do?)

2008-11-08T10:53:00.003+07:00

Right
So I'm still with the laptop
It's just I guess I have to bear with this thing.
Hehee
Anyway, I'm pondering (what a word ==) about the song lists I placed on my blog here.
Well I fell in love once more with the songs I've placed here, despite the fact it's rather old already.
Hehee..
So, I've decided not to change the playlist.
But, I'll just have a little rearrange or simply adding some more songs.

Oh right.
The other thing I hate about this laptop is that it can't simply read a single chinese/japanese/korean/whatsoever letter!

I guess I'll just have to majorly upgrade it.

Geez.

See, I'm so out of idea what to blab today.

It's settled then.
I'll just put an end here.
*Might post a bit later, if I had more interesting stuffs*

Morning!

2008-11-07T06:20:00.002+07:00

Yea, morning.
It's really rare for me to write early in the morning yea?
I guess so.
Oh God.
How I hate to write with laptop, I wonder why the cursor kept appeared in the middle of the words while I was typing (resulting me to be a typo, as in the words I've typed got inserted with some new words and it get really weird...do you get the idea? no? God.)
I figured it's because of the touchpad.
I'll just put up with this, as I'm way too lazy to get myself upstairs towards the computer.
Or not.
Yea, right.
My brains are just not ready yet now.
Why am I blabbing about this again?
Whatever.
I guess I might as well be ready for school already (Yay, last day of school! XD)
So I see it's ti-
Oh kill the laptop.

It's been quite a while

2008-11-03T20:23:00.002+07:00

No, I'm not dead people.
LOL.
I'm still kickin'.
Just a bit stuffs that resulted me not updating for who-knows-how-long.
And dude, it made my hands all stiff and hardly could type as well as before.
Man..
Right, so I have like, bunch of stuffs to spit out.
About Halloween mostly.
Hehe
It's kinda OK.
To be honest.
It's utterly cool.
Gawd.
I'm not feeling well now.
My brains are not working to their fullest.
The nausea feeling keeps bugging me.
Dang it.
Maybe I could use a little throw up now.

Oooookay

2008-10-30T20:13:00.001+07:00

Righty right~
It had been ages since I last write ne?
Hehee
Blame it on my hectic life as well as my laziness~
Geez
Tomorrow's halloween
Wish me luck!
I can't write really much~
Gotta go now~
I'll add some more next time~!

Yoo

2008-10-15T19:18:00.002+07:00

Gap Gap Gap Gap
There have been gaps in my writings!
Oh right.
Exam's near now.
Geez.
I fell asleep in class today. Just for a friggin' 15 minutes only.
I can't really have a peaceful sleep.
It's just ain't safe enough.
Geez.
Anyway, me and friends had made some plans for Halloween.
LOL.
I'm really excited!!! XDDD
But..., there are some conflicts happen in my (old) class (don't bother to ask, there won't be any answers.)
And..., I'm afraid by the probability of the event being canceled.
Man, I really, really, really hope it won't get cancel by any causes.
Me and my seat-mate had been dying to hold a party!!! XDD
I wonder what costume would I rent?
Hehee..
It'll probably be a witch?
LOL.
And, there's an (ex)-classmate of mine who appeared to obtain the scholarship for studying abroad (Singapore).
It's kinda difficult to actually think about what gift would be given later.
We sorta decided it (though we're still unsure about it), we maybe will buy some digital camera for her.
It's friggin' expensive damn it.
But we did something called 'joint venture' to gather the money and actually (planned to) buy her one.

Whatever.
I'm just lack of the topics to be blabbered about.

LOL

2008-10-13T21:14:00.006+07:00

LOL Awesomeness!

Watch it! XDDDD

Bla bla bla

2008-10-13T19:39:00.002+07:00

Changed the skin again today!
I rather 'pimp' it!
LOL~
Well, there's a failure though, at the music player part.
I'll find a smaller music player or modify the layout.
LOL
Today is rather uneventful.
But I'm supposed to go to the Meth-3 today.
But since my dad was the one to fetch me, I nullify the idea of going there.
You ask why?
Well, I want to meet a friend of mine who apparently have the musics I want; you know, the Capricorn songs.
I'm just way too impatient to actually wait for the album to pop out at Medan.
And yea, he (somehow) got the songs first.

Anyway, I did my homeworks last night.
And yea, it really resulted me more leisure(?) time at school.
LOL
I guess it's pretty good if you did your works at home.
Hehee~

Geez, I'm pretty idle now.
Got nothing to do.
Seriously.
More like, I'm bored now.

Sighhhh.

Dear Diary

2008-10-11T19:27:00.001+07:00

"Dear Diary"
M2M

Dear Diary,
Something good happened today
He finally called me by my name
I didn't know how to behave
What to say or do
I was so confused

Dear Diary,
I wanna talk to him again
But whenever he is with his friends
He keeps trying to pretend
But I already see
The way he feels for me

What can I do?
Tell me what can I say
When do I let him know I feel the same way?
How can my feelings be so hard to show when
I really want him to know

Dear Diary,
He wrote some letters on his hand
It wasn't hard to understand
I figured I'm part of his plans
But now I'm in his heart
I don't know where to start

What can I do?
Tell me what can I say
When do I let him know I feel the same way?
How can my feelings be so hard to show when
I really want him to know

[BRIDGE]
You're my secret hiding place
Where my private thoughts are safe
And just one look and he will see
What's inside of me

What can I do?
Tell me what can I say
When do I let him know I feel the same way?
How can my feelings be so hard to show when
I really want him to know

What can I do?
Tell me what can I say
When do I let him know I feel the same way?
How can my feelings be so hard to show when
I really want him to know

Dear Diary
Dear Diary
Dear Diary
Dear Diary

Another random lyric posts
:D

. . . . .

2008-10-11T17:54:00.009+07:00

You Are a Dash

Your life is fast paced and varied. You are realistic, down to earth, and very honest.

You're often busy doing something interesting, and what you do changes quickly.

You have many facets to your personality, and you connect them together well.

You have a ton of interests. While some of them are a bit offbeat, they all tie together well.

You friends rely on you to bring novelty and excitement to their lives.

(And while you're the most interesting person they know, they can't help feeling like they don't know you well.)

You excel in: Anything to do with money

You get along best with: the Exclamation Point

What Punctuation Mark Are You?

Your Spelling is Good

You got 9/10 correct.

Your spelling is generally pretty decent. You are prone to a few mistakes, but the mistakes you make are pretty forgivable.

How's Your Spelling?

Your Birthdate: January 18

You are a cohesive force - able to bring many people together for a common cause.

You tend to excel in work situations, but you also facilitate a lot of social gatherings too.

Beyond being a good leader, you are good at inspiring others.

You also keep your powerful emotions in check - you know when to emote and when to repress.

Your strength: Emotional maturity beyond your years

Your weakness: Wearing yourself down with too many responsibilities

Your power color: Crimson red

Your power symbol: Snowflake

Your power month: September

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Gemstone is Topaz

Comforting, considerate, and stable.

You are down to earth and grounded.

What Gemstone Are You?

What Your City Walk Means

You are thoughtful and contemplative. You enjoy spending time alone with your thoughts.

You are generally confident and friendly with strangers. You are well mannered and sociable.

Money is very important to you. You like to have lots of nice things... and you don't care if you're being greedy.

You are curious about ideas. If you had the means, you'd like to explore the whole world.

The City Walk Personality Test

What Your Front Door Says

You have simple tastes.

You like the classic basics, especially when they're done well.

Lots of space in your life is very important.

You don't like physical or mental clutter.

The Front Door Test

You Are "Wow"!

What Japanese Smiley Are You?

Your Autumn Test Results

You are a energetic, warm, optimistic person. You approach everything with a lot of enthusiasm.

When you're happiest, you are outgoing and expressive . You love celebrations, and you enjoy showing off a little.

You embrace change. You love change. You see change as a rebirth.

You find novelty to be the most comforting thing in the world. You love anything that's new or unusual.

Your ideal day is spent in contemplation. You enjoy a quiet day where you can take time to think and day dream.

You tend to live in the moment. You enjoy whatever is going on, and you don't obsess over the past or future.

The Autumn Test

You are 87% Capricorn

You are 87% Capricorn

How Capricorn Are You?

Your Inner Blood Type is Type A

You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.

You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.

Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.

People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.

You are most compatible with: A and AB

Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and Hilter

What's Your Inner Blood Type?

Just really random..
Hehee~

Back~

2008-10-11T16:45:00.006+07:00

It's pretty tiring, but it's fun anyway ^_^
Well, you see, I'm back from my tuition rite?
It appeared that the lesson today concerns about Chemistry, and holy, I was late.
Damn my slowness and the traffic.
The time I entered the room, all eyes were spotted on me.
Why you ask?
Simple.
1. I haven't showed up for almost 1 month.
2. Hello? I'm late for a good half an hour.
3. My teacher was supposed to be different, meaning, this teacher isn't really my teacher, as in, I was supposed to enter a different room, but, my teacher was teaching juniors. There's no way for me to hinder their study rite?
4. There are many new faces there, I don't know most of them.

I searched for familiar faces and thankfully found some, though none of them bother to talk to me. I sat among them (I had no choice, there were only two places left, near them or on the 'strategic' seat where you could only have heads as the object of sigh, which later occupied by my best friend, Joan.)
The group chatted animatedly, I chuckled quietly when they cracked up some hilarious jokes. They're fun, though it didn't matter me if I made the choice not to engage in any conversation with any of them.
Somehow, they had one kind of smell. Not that they smelt bad or what, they smelt like oat-meal, you know, the typical breakfast thingy.
It must be their candies.

Anyway, I wasn't that patient to wait the time pass.
I glanced at the clock (at mobile phone) almost every minutes.
I don't really have the passion nor interest to study.
I know it's no good at all.
Sighh.

Anyway, we went to the mall.
We did the usual stuffs; walked around, hung at a cafe, window shopped, etc etc...

Well, there's one thing that kinda took attention.
We accidentally ran into (not really, just glanced) at some guy.
He seemed to suffer some illness of skin.
His skin was all pinkish, I do mean pinkish and not in the normal way, somehow had the plastics appearance.
He was bald and wore glasses.

I don't know how to feel when I saw him.
I kept quiet and passed by.
Thankfully, he got friends, they all wore high-school uniforms (including the guy too).
They sat together at a certain cafe and chatted happily.
I didn't notice it first, but Joan pointed them out to me.

Then, I went for the 'hunting' of Jay's album, Capricorn (XD).
We went to the 'MELODY'.
Sadly, it hadn't arrived yet.
But I had left my number for the shop attendant (her request) for the information of its arrival.
Hope she didn't forget to inform me about the album!

Humm, then today's weather was cloudy and dark, and not long after that the rain followed!
Yay!
I lovee rain!! XD
Really, had you ever felt the content and peace along with the voices of dropping rains?
I love to listen to the melodic splashing rhapsody from the sky.
It's like washing away the dirtiness of this world.
Love it! :D

Impressions

2008-10-11T10:21:00.004+07:00

OK, gotta write these down before I had the chance to forget.
This are my impressions after reading 'their' (you-know-who) blogs.
They're pretty good, great stories, great times, interesting lives.
Simply love them! XD

OK, I'm gonna be late for my so-called-tuition.
Gotta scram
Will write later when I came back.
Probably later coz I'll make my 'visit' towards the mall. LOL

P.S. OMG OMG, their languages are so formal, not like mine; wrecking crap. *shame* *shame* *shame*
Crap, I'm soo late now.

...

2008-10-10T23:24:00.003+07:00

Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be, always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul...

yeah

You might need time to think it over
But I'm just fine, moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul...

Am I crazy for wanting you
baby do you feel you could want me too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your soul

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul...

...
I don't know...
Just wanna post this :D

Todae~

2008-10-10T22:25:00.019+07:00

Today's funnn! XDD
Really it is!
It rained from 4 in the morning (4 in the morning! xp).
I love Rains!
Though it flooded badly and it caused 'wet-feeted' syndrome to most of the people here.
LOL
I'm saved! My feet are perfectly dry! Not soaked with the disgusting water xp
Lucky me~
Anyway, I took photographs of today!

Taken location : at my home, at the study's window to be exact. (Looks more like prison? LOL)
Taken(if not mistaken)at : 6 something.
Reason of the photographs : The sky looks green

Taken location : school! at the 4th floor room D2 407, my old-class X-06
Taken(if not mistaken)at : 7 something
Reason of the photographs : Plain boredom

Taken location : school~ class X-06~ hehe
Taken(if I'm not wrong)at : 8 something
Reason of photographs : ...I dunno LOLOLOLOL

Oh I have to tell about this photo!! XDD
It's that my friend here (male of course! LOLOLOL) apparently had his shoes 'dipped' for quite a while, && yea, it just means he had to change 'em into something else other than his shoes.
LOL
Then, he went to our corps(is it what u call that?), and tried to find a pair of new slippers(sandals) for the change. Sadly, lol yea, there ain't no sandals left but this pink love-decorated fluffy slippers left.
Lovely.
LOLOL.
I'm really bad you know, I laughed at him~~ XD
And worse, posted this on the internet.
OMG.
But I had asked his permission before~ hehee~

Taken location : Another photo at X-06! (I really love this class X])
Taken(I'm not sure)at : 8 something
Reason of photographs : Well, proof of the teachers' lateness? LOL
We slacked kinda long enough.

Taken location : X-01, on one of the X-01's desks(at the back)
Taken at : Dunno, it's almost going home time I suppose
Reason : Plainly bored (hehe :D)
This got no connection for the flood. LOL. It's just my friend folded some star-shaped thingy and I drew some smiley faces on them~ Hehe

XD
I'm still excited! XD
I dunno why though.
I'm just simply weird. Hehe.
There are times when I'm pissed off like hell, and there are also times where I'm happy like I'm gonna smile like an idiot for all day long.
Hehee~

Well, I kinda visited my new classmates blogs and friendster pages.
And you know what I felt?
I feel the genuine deep envious.
What to envy you ask?
Well, it's their friendship and closeness...it seems that neither me or anyone new in that class can enter and dissolve thoroughly with them.
What I'm trying to emphasize is that, they're so lucky they met each other.
They cherish one another as much as they could afford.
I like seeing them.
It's just so happy.
It just feel like they're not going to be separated from one another forever.
It's just like there's an unbreakable bond beyond them.

I hope me and my friends are like that too! :D

...
The truth is...
Not everyone was happy today.
My best friend Margareth here, felt sorrow.
It's all because her b*stard freaking boyfriend.
He lied to her.
I'm just sick of him
I thought he was a good great guy.
But, he's just a sicko wearing a stupid mask.
I mean, please, his lies were all so 'transparent', meaning, too obvious!!
He's such a stupid idiot!!
I HATE HIM!!
I swear I won't let him made my best friend sad anymore!

...
Well I guess that's enough~

P.S. Do you think I might be rather harsh in my posts before at the blog?
I hope not.. hehe..

Weary day

2008-10-08T20:30:00.002+07:00

Man, I'm so goddamn sleepy today!
I supposed to have a sweet warm nice slumber yesterday, and then this jerk came, completely ruining my rest.
Holy F*ck.
Man, he woke me up at 12 am!
F*ck him!
And guess what?
I only slept for like 3 hours!
Holy crap.
And worse.
I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA WHO THE HELL HE IS!
What an Asshole.
Really, I wish this retarded pig will stop bothering me!
Man, he bothered me at my class, during the lesson, bother my tuition.
Holy sh*t.
I hope I can sleep peacefully today.

Today; Another day

2008-10-07T21:31:00.002+07:00

Man, today is totally hectic.
All I did at school was copying my friends' homeworks. Yea, I know that's not good.
But, damn. I really can't understand the homeworks!
...
Okay", I admit it.
It's not really that I don't understand the homework or what.
It's just the plain laziness that simply love to stick with me like a glue.
And yea, instead of brushing off the 'laziness' I just do nothing and simply enjoy its companion!
Oh man.
Really, how I wish all that I can do was...
Ctrl + A
Ctrl + C
Ctrl + V
You see how easy it is?
Ctrl + A
Ctrl + C
Ctrl + V
...
Ctrl + A
Ctrl + C
Ctrl + V
...
Mannn
Whatever.

So you see today we got this whole SAT thingy, and it appeared to have Biology as the main concern of the lesson.
And the teacher.
He sucks.
I mean, all he did was reading the texts and translating few words of it!
Oh man.
And oh, did I mention he looked hilarious in his skinny pants?
Not that he's overweight or what, he's plainly thin, I mean it, plainly thin!
And his emotionless boring face.
It's just like a lullaby to me.

The worse thing is that this SAT lesson has apparently showed up at the first lesson of the day!
Can you imagine that?
I'm the typical person who after wakes up will immediately has the urgent to hit bed and doze off.
And he's luring me to do that.
I almost fell asleep. Almost.
I dare not to sleep nor talk at the damned lesson of his.
He threw one of the markers to one of the whispering girls at the first day.
There's no way I'll have a day like that.

Then, there's this teacher who I kinda like...I guess...
She's great at philosophy, though it's not her main taught lesson.
Well, she told us that our days begin and end ironically in the same way.

Coming in a great hurry to school, start copying homeworks as fast as you could, desperately pray that the teacher somehow got locked in the bathroom, sigh heavily when the teacher shows up almost immediately after the prayer, given homework to do, then go straight towards private lessons after school, arrive home at around 9pm or something, crawl towards bed straight away, having no little time to finish whatever homework given.

I totally agree with those.
I mean, puh-lease. Give us some space. Really, everyday I look at the calendar wishing it's weekend already.
I'm really tired of the so-called homeworks already.
Sighh.

Whatever.
Now I got two more homeworks to be done and submitted by the very first lesson of tomorrow.
I guess I gotta run off then.

Karma?

2008-10-06T18:48:00.014+07:00

Yesterday and today made me learn about what you call as 'Karma'.

Karma \Kar"ma\, n. [Skr.]
1. (Buddhism, Hinduism) One's acts considered as fixing one's
lot in the future existence.
[1913 Webster]

2. (Theos.) The doctrine of fate as the inflexible result of
cause and effect, especially the principle by which a
person is rewarded or punished in a subsequent incarnation
for deeds in the previous incarnation; the theory of
inevitable consequence.
[1913 Webster]

3. One's destiny; fate.
[PJC]

4. (Mysticism) The supposed non-physical emanations that a
person gives off, which may affect other people;
vibrations.
[PJC]

Definitions from sederet.com

Yea, that.

And apparently, you see yesterday I kinda opposed my parents rite?
Uh-huh.
I cooked myself noodle and actually idiotically burned my own hand.
Can you imagine that?
Yea, me, I'm stupid.

Whatever.
Then, today, at school to be exact.
There's this teacher, the biology lab's teacher.
She kinda underestimate our class, meaning, she said that our class was cunning, sly, good for nothing, whatever, you mention.
She kept talking all the time.
I felt like puking that time.
Really, all she's talking about was nonsense.
I felt stupid to listen to her.
So you see we got this 'cork cell observation' thingy. (cork: the thing you use to seal bottles; usually wine's bottle.)
And we got to slice a very very thin layer of the cork.
Since the razor blade was extremely ultra super sharp, the teacher did it for us.

The teacher (who underestimated us) practically did it while kept talking (ranting, whatever), saying stuffs like, "that's why, listen to me your teacher," or "all of you must respect your teachers more."

(I don't really witness it, I just heard it from the vice-class-monitor. whatever)

While talking, she sliced her hand. Twice.

Man, how she sucks.

Later on today, I went to a doctor.
And, hell, she still had her holiday.
I waited for nothing.
Dang.

Nevermind.
But I got to see someone to play violin directly today.
He's not really good though.
But I appreciate his efforts already though.
It's still better than me, who can't play any instruments, well except for the recorder though. ^^"

Regret

2008-10-05T18:58:00.003+07:00

So, here I am once again being dragged out with my parents.
I refuse it.
Really.
I totally refuse it.
I mean, this is like, the last day of the holiday!
The last day of my freedom, the last day of slacking.
And yea, I'm pretty regretful now.
They..., my parents... their expression... seems so...sad...

I hate myself.

Last day

2008-10-05T15:08:00.003+07:00

Oh well, today appear to be the last day of the holiday.
Do you know what it means?
Yep, no more boredom, slacking etc.
B.u.t..
Dang it.
I've not even finish one of my homeworks.
And why do teachers love to give homeworks on holiday?
Ah..yes..
They just love torturing us.

Oh well

2008-10-04T17:44:00.002+07:00

Yea, I guess not everything is bad today.
I seriously need to know what the hell happen to me.

My cranky mood faded away all of sudden.
Not that I mind though.

Well, I made a new glasses today.
And holy crap.
It cost a lot.
I don't find a reason to mention the number though.

Whatever.

I'm just plain weird today.

Today S.U.C.K.S

2008-10-04T14:11:00.002+07:00

Yea, today sucks way too much.
As in?
A lot of stuffs.

I helped my mum attending her shop today.
Yea, it was really really really vacant.
And yea I was rather cheerful earlier.

I don't know what the hell was happening on me.
I just got all fidgety and was way too far from content.

Hell no.
I'm not having any period.
So it's obvious it's not PMS or whatsoever you are thinking I might have.

It's just...mood swings I suppose?

And yea, my parents made me waaaaaaaaaaaaay much better. *scoff*

They made my day a lot worse.

What's with them?
I mean, ruining my mood today?
By screaming, accusing me for what I obviously, clearly, legibly hadn't done or even thought about!

Really, right now I just need a hole deep enough for me to scream my lungs out.
Simply Frustrated.

Suprisingly, two of my besties had the same problems with me too.
The difference is just at the situation.
While the similarity is at the object of our frustration; parents.

I really wonder what happened to parents today.
Really.

I didn't talk to my mum a lot today.
I'm way too angry to talk to her.
I know I'm being childish and illogical.
And selfish I might add.
But it just feel ain't right if I talk to her now.

I have the feeling that I'll be dragged out tonight for dinner with the so-called-harmonious-big-family.

I loath it.
A lot.

I mean, if you really want to increase what you call as the solidarity, harmony, compatibility, conformity, or whatsoever, I suggest to eat at home with a big feast all hand-made.

It certainly will add those points.
Am I right?

In my family's case here.
It's all for a show. An exhibition.
For the outsiders to see.
To actually scream out, "Look! We're a happy family and we love each other A LOT!" without saying a word.

Yea, whatever.
I realize myself to be too sarcastic today.

I seriously need some rest...I guess.

Another boring day~

2008-10-03T11:20:00.007+07:00

Helloooooo~
I guess it's been a while since I last posted, ain't it? ^^"

To be honest, I didn't have the kind of mood to actually wrote past few days.
And yea, today was totally uneventful, just like the past few days.

Actually I was asked to attend my mum's shop, you know, helping out and stuffs like that.
I practically escaped though.
With the reason of homework.
I'm a filthy liar, ain't I?

Well, I am, indeed.

The reason for me to not wanting to go to the shop is that.
Hello?
It is holiday!
And I'm sure as hell that no one, let me rephrase, almost no one will visit the shop!

Wanna proof?

See, two days ago, one of my besties came back.
She moved there with her family.
And, she actually planned to move back!

Holy crap.
Can you imagine how happy I was?

Yea, to celebrate this (not really), we hit the mall straight away (my sister followed).
Being the most popular mall it is, I suppose it to be crowded.
And in the usual weekend, the traffic sucks to hell, meaning?

Everyone practically drives all their way towards the same place, same time and the same urgent to get in there!

I recalled sulking for being stuck in the traffic for almost an hour.

So, despite of being crowded (the roads), it's empty, almost deserted to be exact.
My dad drove through easily and arrived there in no time.

Nextly, we both made our way towards the game center; our greatest favorite place of all times.
We tried the DDR (a.k.a Pump Zero) first. Not we, she only.
And yeap, she did quite a great job in playing it.
I watched her for a while. It seemed really cool!

Then, it's my turn to play.
I played some kind of game which only uses hand.
As in, upside left-right, downside left-right.
I forgot the name.
And she watched me back in change.

After that, we got the kind of mood to line up for the drum game (Percussion Master).
This game apparently is really, really, indeed very popular.
You'll end up frustrated if you're not patient enough to wait for your turn.

To our surprise, it's pretty vacant, and all we have to wait is one round game of the other people.
It's great, really.

Well, I guess, those are proofs of the almost empty city nowadays.
And, most of my (rich) friends made their trip out of the country.
Lucky people.

Man how I envy those rich people.
They got to visit countries I would kill to have my feet step on the grounds way too easily.
Sighh.
Never mind.

Ah, guess what.
I painted my nail black!
Why nail you ask?
Well, only one nail was painted to black.
I planned on not washing it off till it vanish by itself.
&& that's why I can't paint it all black.
As school starts in a few days.
All black nails will be way too standing out.

The other reason I painted it black is, this is the only nail I allow to grow its length.
Can you guess what nail it is?
Hehee~
It's my right hand ring-nail.
I placed an aquamarine stone on it.
Psshh. It's actually a cover to the smudged away paint I clumsily did.
Tee-hee.
My fingers are fat and short aren't they?
TT_TT
It's because I like to...how to say...crack them?
I guess it is the cause.

Thenn, the next news is that....one of my besties is going out with someone!
Gratz!
I wish her the best and hope her boyfriend is not a jerk or something like that.

And yay!
I've changed my blog's skin! XD

holidaee

2008-09-29T14:03:00.001+07:00

WOOHOOO
HOLIDAY!!!
But!
I'm bored to death here
Gosh
Isn't there anything interesting here?
Geez~
And I don't feel like ranting this moment
*sighhhh*

-J_c-

C.A.P.R.I.C.O.R.N.

2008-09-27T10:22:00.002+07:00

In Desperate Need of the album right N.O.W!!!!

Jay Chou's Capricorn
OMG

I can't order it from internet T_T
My mum sure won't permit.
TT_TT
TT_TT

I hope I can buy one later...
I won't mind the cost... TT_____TT

-J_c-

Another friggin' day

2008-09-24T18:47:00.002+07:00

Well, today's no other interesting day.
Really boring to be told.

Argh.
(frustrated as there's nothing to be written down.)

So (just got to have something to be ranted about), I joined the-ugh don't really know what you call the news or articles posted on the wall inside.
Nevermind.
So I joined that thing.
And apparently this month's topic will be concerning about 'Hollywood', you know, red carpets, celebrities, those stuffs thingy.
And yea, I don't really have a thing in mind to make.

Geez.

Nextly, it's this thing.
I felt sorta weird.
The faculties (teachers, headmistress, co-headmistress, etc etc), whenever they appear to pass by our classroom, whether it's just 'the nature call' or just simply going upstairs, they just seemed terrified to only take a glance inside the classroom.

I really wonder why.

Is it that they're afraid to actually spot an infraction of the class or what?

Not that I hate the fact though.
It actually benefits me!
I can actually do other things without even worrying to be caught.
LOL.
I'm really bad ain't I?

-J_c-

XD

2008-09-20T19:30:00.006+07:00

Today is really really really really really FUN!!
OMG
I love toady soooo much!
So, we(schoolmates and I)'re told to take our Junior High diplomas today.
And yea, the teacher said to arrive at 8 sharp which apparently I arrive much earlier than the appointment.
Whilst the teacher?

Yea, betcha, she's rather late.
Dang it.

Then she started to divide the so-called diplomas really really slowly.
Man, how I'm impatient at that time?
We gotta press our fingers on the ink pad to get our finger prints.
Whatever.

So we've done what we're asked to, and we've eventually covered our fingers with the blue inks.
Here's a photo~

Then, we found this hilariously tagged-flower.
We took two pictures of it.
The first picture here with some Indonesian words.
The words actually said, 'Please water me.'
LOL.
I'm curious of its writer.
Could it be the cleaners or the students?
LOL.

The second picture here actually says, 'Don't litter here.'
And, did you (Indonesian people) notice how stupid the creator could be?
Even the simple 'Jangan' (Don't) can't be spelled well, he/she actually wrote 'Janggan'. LOLLL.

And then, we've spent most of the morning at school.
It felt kinda weird to actually stay at school at weekends.
LOL.

Next, we went to the traditional market, where we could actually find some fabrics cheaply (we've planned to make accessories >> headcraft together).
Guess what? It stinks!!!
I just don't understand what really is their purpose to actually litter everywhere.
Yuck!!!

Ugh.
We managed to reach the accessories suppliers store.
The materials are quite cheap...I suppose...
And there's one shop we entered where actually got a mute woman.
We're kinda shocked.
I mean, this is actually my first time to see a mute person.

We bought what we needed and went to my house.

Then, apparently, my freaking housemaid isn't willing to cook for us.
So we got to cook instead.

And, Joan did no help.
LOL.

Well, she took photographs instead.

So, we, amateurs, tried our best to cook.
And, we almost gave up at the first round; lighting fire.

Really, it's hard as hell.
As the cooking stove in my house is rather old fashioned.
It's really really hard for an amateur like me to actually lit the fire.
I usually lit the fire with matches.
But this time, there's no matches.
The only thing available is the lighter.

Geez~

So, lastly, we lit some toothpicks to lit the stove next.

In my first attempt, I'm rather excited that I reflexively closed the gas as I finally lit the light.
LOL.
It's really stupid.

Then we realized a thing.
The fire is way too huge.
Then we decided to reduce it.
Which finally ended up extinguishing it.

"Idiots."

Nevermind.

Guess what?
Me and my besties (4 people in total) actually ate 6 packs of instant noodles!

Not to forget our dish is 4 pieces of bananas sliced with condensed milk on.
LOL.

We really pigged out today.
LOL!!

The next moment we found ourselves sitting at my room with our materials scattered everywhere covering the room.
They practically changed my room to an abandoned ship.
LOL.

Wherever we got this taking out the old Barbies out to do the so-called 'Makeovers'
LOL.

Finally we decided a looooooooooot of things, like: "Let's bring our stuffed toys here next week! We'll make their clothes! XD" or "Let's take our socks here! We'll make designs on it!! XDD" or "Let's take our Barbies here!! We'll make clothes for them" etc.

LOL
It really is fun!!
I want to rewind!!
Pretty please?
>A<

-J_c-

Today

2008-09-19T19:18:00.005+07:00

Hi all, greetings!
Today's not really eventful or something.
I guess I kinda stuck in the bored-zone again.

Geez~

Nevermind.

So, do you remember the pimple incident?

Yea, that one.

My mum seemed frustrated about it, still.
So, she decided to drag me to a skin specialist.
Man, I'm way too lazy to go.
So, I made up the reason that I got to go to the tuition.
But still she insisted.

Dang.

Worse thing is that she's not even there to accompany me!

She let my brother drove me there and left me all alone.
Man, how did I feel?

Geez~

So, I stood there waiting for quite a time.
It sucks as hell.

There's one girl who apparently was older than me a year (15 I guess) waiting with her mother as well. She's rather annoying. She looked at other people with her eye corner. And she acted all mighty there, as if the world revolves around her or something, which obviously doesn't.

Sucker.

Geez.

They got the number 7.
While me got 6.

Obvious, isn't it?
I should have got my turn first.

But instead, that girl and her mummy slipped towards first, practically cutting through the line just in front of me.

How I just wanna stuck my entry number into her freaking mouth.

I freaked out more when the doctor didn't hear a single tint word of mine and served them first.

Hell.

I waited for another ten or fifteen minutes, rather patiently.

When it's my turn, my friggin' brother finally showed up.
I don't really care though.

Gee, the doctor started to examine my face, and started asking stuffs, "How many times have you come here?"

"This is the first time."

"I see, what is your problem?"

"These." I pointed my face.

"OK, so, I suppose you like to eat: nuts," yes. "avocado," occasionally. "prawns," hell yes!! "honey," wut? "blah blah blah" she listed some foods that I don't even like.

Then she continued, "And, do you sleep kinda late?"

I nodded.

She beckoned me to the bed and asked me to lay on it. Then she started to apply some cold mildly-thick liquid on my face. She did it kinda fast and roughly, not really rough but rough enough to let the cool thingy rubbed my lips. I was like, yuck, and quickly rubbed the liquid off my lips with my hands. Then she took out an item with a soft brush on the top. When she clicked the button, the item started to spin the brush on its top. Next she worked the machine on my face. It gave kinda ticklish feeling. After that she was off to take some other stuffs more, something like the liquid before, but this time it's thinner.

Since it's kinda thin, it melted to almost everywhere on my face.
My eyes not excluded.

I had to close my eyes or that thing will actually sneaked into my eyes.
Next I felt something like ice applied on my face.
After that she dripped some other stuffs on my face.
Lastly, she plastered my face.
Yea, I almost looked like a mummy.

During all her works, she kinda chatted with me, more like asking stuffs.

"Where's your school? Sutomo?"

geez, it's already written on my right hand sleeve isn't it?

"Yes."

"What level are you?"

"The first year."

"I suppose you sleep rather late usually?" I smiled, then she continued, "What time do you usually sleep?"

I answered rather reluctantly (I'm not really proud of my lacking of sleep), "11 or 12 I guess."

"Ah, so that is the problem. Having too much homework is it?" she smiled.

Gee, do I look like who does homeworks? "Err...yea...hehe..." yep, lied.

The rest conversation is just her explaining how to apply the medicine she's going to give me.
There's so much to do.
Troublesome.

1. Wash your face with this soap.
2. Rinse it until all the soap has gone.
3. Apply this medicine evenly on your face.
4. Then put this at last.

Blah blah.
Whatever.

Next, I'm not allowed to open my plasters on my face.
Great. Just great.
My nose started to itch already.
Hell.

Then, there's food prohibition.
Things I can't get through:
nuts (hell, my peanut butter TT_TT), prawns (NOOOOOOOOOOO)

TT_TT

I've always hated food prohibition.

Next, I must eat some medicines they gave me.
Hell, it's bitter like hell.

Ugh.

-J_c-

Heyy

2008-09-18T18:39:00.004+07:00

So, today, there's kinda a lot of things happen (I suppose)..
Hehee~
You see today's my friend, Joan's b'day, yes, happy b'day to her! Go greet her!
Anyways, today is kinda eventful, I suppose...
Somehow it turned out funner than usual.
I don't really know why though~
LOL
I just had more fun than usual.

There's a singing examination today.
And I was dragged to one of my friend's group.
She moved me from the high-pitch to the low-pitch, then low pitch to the high-pitch, then high-pitch to the low-pitch, which lastly, she told me to do the high-pitch.

Geez~

And we kinda trained out the week.
We're sorta ready to face the exam.
Though she (friend) said it's still imperfect.
They also complained the my voice is too soft.
While I've screamed out my lung here.

Geez~

So, the exam is up.
The teacher changed her freakin' mind.

Well, whatever.

We didn't sing together.
But instead, I got to sing with one girl in high pitch voice vs the three guys who got the bass-voice.

Geez~

One of the boy told me the stuff I had long known.
My voice, being mine, is almost inaudible.
Well, at least my voice is louder than the girl.

F.Y.I.
I'm still new at the class.

Then, the language teacher was absent, again.
Gee, I wonder where that man was at again?
He's almost always absent at his lessons though.
I'm getting kinda sick of it.
I mean, what's the point attending class without a teacher?

Well, there's a teacher, but it's just a substitute teacher.

And, hell, she sucks all the way.

One of my friends need to return my other friend's book. (You see our school book is heavy as hell, so most of us left our books home and borrowed it from other classes instead. And yes, our school has no locker or any goddamn container to keep our friggin'-iron-weighed-book. It sucks I know.)

I just wanna get my hell out of the class.

So I kinda excused to go to the toilet (nature call, no joke) , and wandered around (taking far stairs; trailed long paths; peeking into other classes; etc etc) before headed straight to the class upstairs (my class is at the second floor) to finish the (returning book) task.

I paced along the corridors in front of the class for a while first. I was considering how to enter the class.

At last I entered the class room directly, meaning no hiding or sneaking (I usually slipped the book from the window).

So I knocked at the door, feeling a bit nervous (I wonder why?), then peeked a bit into the classroom, thankfully, the teacher seemed nice.

I got inside, practically said, "Sorry sir, I needed to return my friend's book."

The teacher funnily, said, "You blah blah blah" I didn't kinda got that but I suppose it's something related to not studying and wandered instead thingy.

Then one of my friend sitting in front saying, "Hey, uncle in front ask you blah blah blah" didn't quite catch it as well, I just grinned at him instead.

Then the teacher standing in front said, "Quickly give back the book, the uncle over there is angry already."

That earned a laugh from each students there.

I rolled my eyes and walked towards my friend and handed her the book, muttering something like, "Thank you."

I heard her seat-mate said something like, "Why does everyone borrowed your book?"

I don't really care and rushed out of class, while saying, "Thanks sir" without really meaning it.

I was out at last.
Time to get back.
Or not.

I decided to head up one more level before back into the freaking class.
Thanks to the locked toilets near my classroom, the so-called-faculties-only-toilets, I won't be suspected to be this long for the toilet break.

Whatever.

I deliberately passed my bestfriends' class (Joan included).
Sadly, the ones who sought me were the ones who aren't really close to me.
I just gave them a single wave and kept wandering around.

I finally realized that it took kinda long already and headed back to class.

I really regretted myself for not escaping when I saw the sub teacher.

Damn it.

Anyways, I'm back to the class.
And dang.
I totally forgot the nature call.
Sh*t.

Nevermind anymore.

I joined my classmates and started to chat.

It really is like a ritual, I do something > for a while > got bored and sick > do something > back to the beginning > for a while > got bored, etc etc.

And, I got bored of chatting.

I came with an idea to play truth or dare.
And my seatmate is really, really, indeed, isn't daring at all.
She's way too afraid of everything.
Just standing and wave for like 10 seconds, she doesn't dare.

Geez~

I'm dared to tell a guy which I barely know, scratch that, don't know at all, that he's handsome, which I find stupid and think he's not handsome at all.

"Xxx, You're so handsome you know?" << style="text-align: right;">-J_c-

Ugh Piss Off

2008-09-17T20:24:00.003+07:00

Parents these days, what exactly are their problems?

Today I got back home, did my usual things, minded my own business, not really gave a goddamn care about anything.

Then my mum saw me, yea, she came back from work.

She saw me, and yea, I've got lots of pimples.

She beckoned me here to have a close look at my hideous face.

She practically said, "You've got too many pimples. Let me squeeze them."

"No." I know squeezing pimples will make the pimples worsen. And I had told it to my so-called-mother THOUSANDS of time already. She just doesn't want to listen.

"Don't be so persistent! Let me do it!"

"No." I rolled my eyes.

"Come!" she pulled me to her room and said, "Lay there."

"No."

"WHY ARE YOU SO HARD-HEADED?!" she shouted at me angrily. And it lit up my own emotion as well, "NO!"

"EVERYBODY SAYS THAT I'M NOT TAKING GOOD CARE OF MY OWN KIDS!!" she shouted much louder. The tension is getting higher.

"It hurts!"

"JUST LISTEN TO ME!" Since she was gripping my hand, I felt like she screamed at my ears directly.

Who f**king care about what 'everyone' says?
So she takes care of me just as a cover?
How great!

Ugh. I'm not in the mood to continue already.

Thanks for reading my ranting.

-J_c-

Blog skins

2008-09-15T17:53:00.002+07:00

So, hehe, I changed my blog's skin today
Yep, it's the kitty theme!
Hehe~
I got it from here blogskins.com, and yes, the skins there are really cool!
I really wanna try to make one!
Hehe~
But all the java scripts or whatsoever confused me.. TT
I just hope that I can understand them better if I deal with them everyday.
*sighh*
I'll try to make a skin!
Hehe~
Anyways, the school isn't really interesting today.
It's plain boring.
I almost fell asleep at math.
O gee, thankfully I can hold back my sleepiness though I stole small chances to take a quick eye-rest.
Hehe~
And geez, my homeworks had piled up mountains already.
*sighh*
But I still don't want to do it..
*sighh*
I guess I'll stop here today
See you

-J_c-

Today

2008-09-14T21:18:00.001+07:00

Ok, so today's Sunday
I woke up, lied on the bed, read novel, went to breakfast and took shower after (lol, I'm so dirty), then I went to the usual Sunday School, did the usual listening, went home, had lunch, blah blah blah, etc, the usual ritual thingy.
OK, so what I'm trying to say is that, today was soo boring.
Nothing really happened, really, I mean nothing at all except me having this vocal practice along with some friends to face the- what's that called again? Ah, the music lesson.

Not that I hate singing or what, only, not the National Anthem or the School Anthem.
Both got those ridiculously high notes that was almost impossible for me to reach.
Better yet, I got to sing these songs in front of my new classmates!
Can you imagine how I embarrassed I am?

Ah, did I mention that I am on the 10th grade yet?
I guess not is it?
Hehee~
I'm a girl anyway, 14 this year; 14 years 7 months 27 days to be exact.
Man, how I hate getting older.
Things were loads better back then than now.
I miss the old primary times.. TT

Anyway, since today is the 15th of the Chinese Calendar, it means today's the MoonCake Festival!
Nice festival I guess.
It's believed to be the Moon's birthday today.
Hehe~
I guess that's all for today, I'll continue next time!
See ya!

-J_c-

Hello World!

2008-09-13T22:39:00.001+07:00

Hi!!
My first post here!
It's Saturday the 13th today~
Hehee~

X]

Not to mention it rained!
Yay! It's completed! XD

Hehee~
And since it's Saturday, it means NO SCHOOL!!11!!!!
And, I can wake up late today!
Hehee~

But, no school means no incidence.
*sighh*
And it's also equivalent to: Boredom
*sighh*

But, today, there's a kinda annoying thing happened though.

My mum cut my bangs in force
GRR
Now my bangs are short and I looked idiot with these.

Argh!!
I hope nobody laughs at me later when they see me!
X<>

-J_c-