It's almost 11pm now.
And I'm still awake, full of energy at that, which is quite a problem for me (tomorrow's a Monday, sweetheart.)

I don't know when it started, but I find my energy level (or lack thereof) is very, very low during day times. I can barely stand one-hour-lesson without nodding off. Whilst during night times, I can survive without having to rest my eyes. (I'm serious. There's a time, when I couldn't sleep before the clock hit 5 am. Damn. I had to spend the whole night alone, no one was there to chat with me. And I thought boredom caused sleepiness?)

Yeah, I know it's not exactly that late yet, as it's not yet pass midnight, but still I'm a night person (not quite a good news really, as basically, I'm a student, which means my life proceeds on day times). Cheers.

I think that explains why I post now.
And I'm in desperate need of ranting now (to ignore my boredom or stuffs.)

I'm currently using my new laptop, a tablet PC to be exact, and I hate it.
It's not pressure sensitive (obviously pointless, as my purpose to buy this thing is for drawing); very expensive (I love money to the bits you know); the letters in the keyboard are very small (they are practically cramped) which have to be pressed really, really hard causing me to be a whole typo (fuck the letter 'i'); the network adapter is lousy (I swear I have to push the cable very very hard, to the point where my fingers hurt, to get this thing connected to internet); and the touch pad is really stupid (I practically slammed my fingers to get its response).
Ugh. What is this thing?
Specially designed for Barbarians laptop? (Hello? I have to use loads of energy just for typing!)

I much prefer my old lappy.
However, it's almost dead now; it's sick (viruses).
My bad.

Hmmph...

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I'm 15 this year (and will get older next January), in the sophomore year of high school, yet I have no idea where I will go for university, let alone the major I'll be in.

I've been thinking about taking the design major, but I don't think myself is qualified enough.
My fear of lacking creativity leads me to confusion and seeing that the skill of designs needs somebody to employ makes me dither (working under somebody isn't exactly the best thing in the list if you see).
However, if I take this major, I can always work in the fashion department, opening a boutique to start off?
Well, it's only my dream.

Next in line would be Management.
This sounds quite intriguing, as I always dream of being a General Manager of a hotel, preferably five-star hotels.

Yes, I know I dream big.
And I'm working hard on it (or am I not?).

Whatever.

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Wow. It's 12.21 AM now, and I felt no sleepiness yet.

Ugh.

I think I'll just have some browsing. (out of ideas on what to write)

Ciao.

This is just another typical Tuesday.

I'm in my study room adjacent to my parents' room the door of which is opening right now..*sigh* and there's some "sermon" going on in that very place with its sound not very quiet I tell you..

This time it's my brother's turn.

Apparently they're having a "talk" with my brother for having a girlfriend..whose Chinese zodiac is the same as my brother, snake.

You see,my mother and father are still pretty much Chinese-born, leading them into keeping the traditional culture, in which they believe people born under the sign snake in Chinese zodiacs aren't allowed to be together, as it's sai to bring bad luck or stuffs I don't quite understand.

This isn't the first time my brother's girlfriend being disapproved by my parents.

There's once, a girl, quite pretty, came into the picture.
Well, mother and father didn't disapprove much about the girl (dunno why), but my grandmother (father's) didn't like this girl very much (still dunno why).

They later broke up, not under any pressure of the families or things like that.
They agreed to go on separate ways as long distance relationship doesn't work well. (they thought so.)

Whatever. Doesn't really concern me though.

Haha
I decided to post something at last!
LOL

I won't say much about my absence though.
Long story short: Lost of interest + insufficient time (not like I was busy or what, just...distracted)

Okay, let's concern the present.
It is holiday (finally)!
I am soooo glad by this fact now. Ha-ha!

(Oh! Tomorrow is Joan's birthday, greet her if you wish to. :D)

Anyways, I'm really, really thrilled knowing I won't have to wake up at 6am in the mornings for 9 days straight! (I think I've pointed this out, haven't I? Whatever.)
However happy I am, I still have no idea whatsoever on how to spend my holiday...(actually got plans with family, but I'm not so excited with it or anything so yeah...)
My friends are (almost) all out of town these days and well...I think I'll just stay at home and rot...=.=

I better find good stuffs to do.

School life doesn't suck that much..ditched some lessons (pssh supposed to be secret <.<), worse thing is that I haven't got any of the subjects stuck in my mind yet (and the monthly exams is like, in 1 month. Great.).

Whatever.

I decided to change my blog's skin too (along with this comeback post. HA. comeback!)
Had been editing like crazy just now.
And right now is like 2.23 in the morning for screaming out loud.

I better catch up with some sleep now dammit.
Nity nite.

Soooo, yeah
I'm still alive, of course, in a healthy state indeed.
Too bad?
LOL.
Well, I admit, this blog was kinda deserted for quite long.
Why?
Why?
Why?
...Idunno?

Anyways, today was a birthday of a friend of mine.
And, we kinda bought a jacket for him.
Which was, like, wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was wrapped in paper which was- whatever, the point is, he had quite a good time unwrapping it.
LOL.
Too bad I didn't take any pictures.

The test result?
La-La-La-La-La
What is test result?
Some kind of instant canned food which can be eaten without having it cooked? ("stole" this statement from a friend~ L.O.L!)

Ok, the test sucks and I hate exams!
Who doesn't?
And speaking of exams, one is about to come and show its ugly face to me.
Ugh.
And it was the final exam for my junior year.
Double ugh.
I hate getting older.
Moreover, I hate to graduate, but that doesn't mean I don't wish to get promoted!
But, it's just that, I don't want to actually leave school.
There are so many wonderful (and bad) things at school!
Whatever, I just love (and hate) school.
LOL.

And..Oh!
Do you believe in 2012?
I dunno, it kinda scared the hell out of me.
here and here
...
and Part I(Indonesian) also Part II(Indonesian)
I can't comment

..

So, yeah, how long was it since I last posted?
Forever? I assume so too.

However, life is just life, nothing special happens.
And yeah, exam's near, yet I had prepared nothing for it.
I supposed, the torture of studying will soon arrive.

Haizzz

Boring

Sometimes, I wonder, am I too dramatic or anything (as in "lebaii" thing), for that I felt total suffer for not getting what I really wanted.
Just like a dandelion seed.
All I can do is just watching it floating around deciding where the wind take it.
I know it's not only me to want that thing, but I can't help but feel selfish. I want only me to own it.
And to my fortune, the thing is currently flying within my hand reach, yet I had no courage to touch it, let alone catch it.
Watching it floating near was bliss, but having it mine was more.
What I hate the most is that the fact which told me that the possibility where I could have lost that thing is quite big, as there was someone out there who was much braver than I was jumping as high as one could to catch it.
However, whispers told me that I should stay here with open hands waiting it to come at its own will.
I know, it was like, hopeless.
But I can still wish, can't I?

Skipped school today.
A relief for me.
School sucks.
How I wish to never go there again.

2 days to go!

2 days till the school started.

I realized, partially feared, the amount of homework aren't decreasing in any way (as I hadn't even touched any of it yet.)
I also know, that it would be less than 48 hours before I had to meet the teachers, to my misfortune again.
*sighh*

I was told that High School Days should have been the greatest time in your life. But NOO, the fact sucks like this.
I mean, how am I supposed to enjoy myself when homework kept on bashing itself to my face? Pretty much understandable, isn't it? (note: sarcasm)

Not to mention the pressure and confusion about choosing one from science or social class.
I'm aware that most people said that science classes are better than social classes. But, one of my friends told me that she regretted having chosen the science class. As most of her free times were dedicated to studying science.
I believe science won't really be useful when you're looking for job or whatever.
The fact is economics rules the world, scientists and jobs equivalent to that are economically ruled, am I wrong?
They need money to do researches, and the money came from the boss, the bosses are basically economical knowledge supplied. (+10 points for social) (-10 points for science)

Yea, my ambition is being boss. LOL.
Greedy brat. (+3 points for social) (-3 points for science)

Besides, I don't really believe my brain will be capable to study the whole thing, you understand right? (+5 points for social) (-5 points for science)

And, I think I'm more interested in studying alternative stuffs, as in, designing clothes, music, writing and stuffs like that. (+2 points for social) (-2 points for science)

So far :
Social = 20 points (+20 points)
Science = -20 points (-20 points)

But there are some people who tell me to enter the science class too.

Such as one of my good friends, who got into the social class.
I'm not clear of her intention of suggesting me so.
I mean, she said she had fun in her class, but she told me that I'll be capable in the science class and suggested me to choose the class only.
Honestly, I prefer freedom to knowledge.
However, I don't wish to be fully retarded though.

Another friend of mine said the same thing.
I told her, "I don't want to be a doctor or anything like that. I suppose social is better."
"But science can get into anything." she reasoned.
I was baffled, and answered, "I guess I just have to take extra lesson for the social needs, right?"
She just shrugged. (+5 points for science) (-5 points for social)

But I think the greatest hindrance that made me doubt to choose the social class was, My Dad.
He wished me to get into the science class, "Your brother was stupid, but I believe you would do better," he remarked. "Get into the science class."
Can I refuse?
I guess not. (+15 points for science) (-15 points for social)

So far :
Social = 0 points (-20 points)
Science = 0 points (+20 points)

Conclusion:
I'm confused, puzzled, perplexed, disoriented, mixed up.
I just don't know.

Whatever.

Anyhow, just informing you, I changed my blog skin again!
How is it?